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god fuckin help me.
my body feels dead.
well.. not necessarily since i can still feel.
but it fuckin sucks.
fuck pills.
i'm a dumbass for fucking with them anyway.
it's sad that something has to happen for me to realize i don't need to be doing it.
i called into work yesterday.
can't imagine what im going to hear for doing that when i go in today.
but fuckin a. ive been working my ass off. for months. and i let work fuck me over all the time.
so fuck that.
ahhh.. fuck fuck fuck.
trying to eat. i have GOT to get through work today.
yesterday all i did was lay in bed.
all day.
all night.
it sucked so bad.
im worried about myself, but eric more. my beautiful.
i hope he feels better. he has to work longer than i do today. harsh.
im gonna have to get my shit together.
ive said it so many times.. but god damnit. i dunno.
i feel like i could collapse over and over.
why does my body hurt so much??? arrrghh..
i wanna break down and cry. scream. laugh. come home again.
i wanna be good.
yesterday i felt a pain in my heart that ive never felt before. it still stings.
i am so disappointed.
but there's still love.
and there's still someone who loves me.
without him i'd fall apart.
and i bet he'd still pick up the pieces.
happiness.
anyway..
i'm gonna go fuck off now.
hopefully make it to work.
take care of yourselves.
my body feels dead.
well.. not necessarily since i can still feel.
but it fuckin sucks.
fuck pills.
i'm a dumbass for fucking with them anyway.
it's sad that something has to happen for me to realize i don't need to be doing it.
i called into work yesterday.
can't imagine what im going to hear for doing that when i go in today.
but fuckin a. ive been working my ass off. for months. and i let work fuck me over all the time.
so fuck that.
ahhh.. fuck fuck fuck.
trying to eat. i have GOT to get through work today.
yesterday all i did was lay in bed.
all day.
all night.
it sucked so bad.
im worried about myself, but eric more. my beautiful.
i hope he feels better. he has to work longer than i do today. harsh.
im gonna have to get my shit together.
ive said it so many times.. but god damnit. i dunno.
i feel like i could collapse over and over.
why does my body hurt so much??? arrrghh..
i wanna break down and cry. scream. laugh. come home again.
i wanna be good.
yesterday i felt a pain in my heart that ive never felt before. it still stings.
i am so disappointed.
but there's still love.
and there's still someone who loves me.
without him i'd fall apart.
and i bet he'd still pick up the pieces.
happiness.
anyway..
i'm gonna go fuck off now.
hopefully make it to work.
take care of yourselves.