Life:
+/- I graduated on tuesday.. YIPPEE!!! (I really wasn't all too excited, but I did care) I really don't know what to do next.
- I was almost late because we left my house at 8:30-something, and traffic was a bitch and we didn't get there until over an hour later.. sigh...
+++ Lalo was there when I got there and he made everything better!!!
+ I had my cell phone as:
A tool of entertainment(I was surrounded by people I didn't know).
A locating device to try and locate my family and Laz.
- I lost two pins at graduation, and i almost lost my thespian tassel
+/- Graduation present = lunch a macaroni grill...?!?!?!
+++ Father = PISSED that I didn't tell him when my graduation was until 5 hours after the event. (YES!)
- College, sigh, I'm not feeling it all to much now... i don't know why, i just, am not feeling it...
+++ Lalo = moving in two weeks!!! (CLOSER TO ME!!! (not by much, but a bit))
+ Lalo = got a new lj.. = laz0.livejournal.com
+++++++++++++++++++++ Me = SO DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH HIM!
ANYWAYS!!!! I had a really weird dream last night which made me question my outlook on life and all of the factors... What scares me, it was a lucid dream, and I knew what I was doing, and I was making all the wrong decisions hoping I would get caught... I don't know... seriously, I'm just not feeling life.. Well, not LIFE, but all the things i "NEED" to do.. I'd be fine doing things on my own, or with SOME help... but If you push me to do something, I'll push harder in the other direction... DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO!!!! I'M VERY STUBBORN!!!!!!!! IF YOU TELL ME TO DO SOMETHING, I WON'T LIKE IT AND I WILL END UP IGNORING YOUR COMMANDS!!!!!!! UNDERSTAND THAT!!!!
I KNOW WHAT I HAVE TO DO!!! LET ME DO IT!!!! IF I NEED YOUR HELP, I'LL ASK FOR IT!!!!
sigh.. i have some anger built up.. and what i realized after graduation, is that I am basically alone... Yea, sure, i have friends... but how many can i actually talk to? exactly...
bueno... sigh.. i'm gonna go play PSO because it's 9 in the morning, i should be sleeping, but i went to sleep at 10:30(!?!?!?!?!) last night... sigh...
<3! i love lalo...(he makes me happy)
- I was almost late because we left my house at 8:30-something, and traffic was a bitch and we didn't get there until over an hour later.. sigh...
+++ Lalo was there when I got there and he made everything better!!!
+ I had my cell phone as:
A tool of entertainment(I was surrounded by people I didn't know).
A locating device to try and locate my family and Laz.
- I lost two pins at graduation, and i almost lost my thespian tassel
+/- Graduation present = lunch a macaroni grill...?!?!?!
+++ Father = PISSED that I didn't tell him when my graduation was until 5 hours after the event. (YES!)
- College, sigh, I'm not feeling it all to much now... i don't know why, i just, am not feeling it...
+++ Lalo = moving in two weeks!!! (CLOSER TO ME!!! (not by much, but a bit))
+ Lalo = got a new lj.. = laz0.livejournal.com
+++++++++++++++++++++ Me = SO DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH HIM!
ANYWAYS!!!! I had a really weird dream last night which made me question my outlook on life and all of the factors... What scares me, it was a lucid dream, and I knew what I was doing, and I was making all the wrong decisions hoping I would get caught... I don't know... seriously, I'm just not feeling life.. Well, not LIFE, but all the things i "NEED" to do.. I'd be fine doing things on my own, or with SOME help... but If you push me to do something, I'll push harder in the other direction... DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO!!!! I'M VERY STUBBORN!!!!!!!! IF YOU TELL ME TO DO SOMETHING, I WON'T LIKE IT AND I WILL END UP IGNORING YOUR COMMANDS!!!!!!! UNDERSTAND THAT!!!!
I KNOW WHAT I HAVE TO DO!!! LET ME DO IT!!!! IF I NEED YOUR HELP, I'LL ASK FOR IT!!!!
sigh.. i have some anger built up.. and what i realized after graduation, is that I am basically alone... Yea, sure, i have friends... but how many can i actually talk to? exactly...
bueno... sigh.. i'm gonna go play PSO because it's 9 in the morning, i should be sleeping, but i went to sleep at 10:30(!?!?!?!?!) last night... sigh...
<3! i love lalo...(he makes me happy)