How do i use this thing again??
Ok, so i haven't used this thing in years... pretty much forgot i had it for a while. i only know of a few people who even still use this thing. but yeah it's that time of year where i start feeling down and mopey. Lately it's felt like i'm just really not important to anyone in my life. like i'm at best a foot note in the passage of their lives and more often simply an annoyance to be tolerated. It's weird, i'm of two minds on the whole thing, on the one hand i know factually that i'm wrong, or at least i think i am, there are a few people out there that i'm rather sure i matter to in at least some way, though with a few of them it's not in the way that i wish they felt about me, but that's not really a big deal. i know this and yet emotionally i still feel like i don't matter at all. It's quite annoying because even though i've gone over the details of it all in my head it hasn't changed anything about how i feel. Not sure who still reads this, but it kinda feels a bit better just having written this out. for now at least.