confusion...
Girls
are so confusing...They drive me crazy inside, and make me wonder what
I am actually getting myself into. She thinks I'm gorgeous, and likes
how I am not like the stereotypical girl, she thinks I have style. I
feel so wonderful when I am with her, she makes me smile, she makes me
laugh, she makes me feel beautiful, she makes me feel alive. When she
touches me to brush the hair out of my face, or to make a funny comment
about the prof last semester my stomach leaps, and the butterflies in
it jump up and down...I want to tell her how I feel, but I am worried
about the outcome, thoug I am starting to realize that I fear too many
things in this life..
I think I would feel more confident with telling her if I knew what I wanted to get out of this, do I want to be in a relationship, or do I just want to be friends but let her know how I am feeling...She thinks I deserve to be taking to a nice dinner, she wouldnt take no for an answer...
I am so confused about everything in my life right now...I feel so lost, scared, unsure, unstable, and so many other things that its causing me to feel extremely confused about my life in general. I feel so alive, but yet also so incredibly dead...
I get to go home next weekend, which I am looking forward to, but yet don't want to be poked and proded with the medical tests...Stupid being a girl with horrible girly problems, why wont they just cut the damn things out, I am never going to use them, hell donate them to some viable women who wants them...Why does age have anything to do with my decision to remove my female reproductive organs? I mean should I just be living in constant pain all the time?
Reading week is fastly approaching which has me extremely worried that I wont be able to get everything finished on time. Midterms are coming up, but yet why do I feel so relaxed about it, considering I am so behind in my studies? I think my floor drank and partied toooo much last night because its a little after 1:30 and people are just starting to surface, where I have been up for hours, thinking, working, pondering...
I think I would feel more confident with telling her if I knew what I wanted to get out of this, do I want to be in a relationship, or do I just want to be friends but let her know how I am feeling...She thinks I deserve to be taking to a nice dinner, she wouldnt take no for an answer...
I am so confused about everything in my life right now...I feel so lost, scared, unsure, unstable, and so many other things that its causing me to feel extremely confused about my life in general. I feel so alive, but yet also so incredibly dead...
I get to go home next weekend, which I am looking forward to, but yet don't want to be poked and proded with the medical tests...Stupid being a girl with horrible girly problems, why wont they just cut the damn things out, I am never going to use them, hell donate them to some viable women who wants them...Why does age have anything to do with my decision to remove my female reproductive organs? I mean should I just be living in constant pain all the time?
Reading week is fastly approaching which has me extremely worried that I wont be able to get everything finished on time. Midterms are coming up, but yet why do I feel so relaxed about it, considering I am so behind in my studies? I think my floor drank and partied toooo much last night because its a little after 1:30 and people are just starting to surface, where I have been up for hours, thinking, working, pondering...