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I cannot remember the last time I even used this thing. But it was just THERE and staring at me and I thought HEY THERE, THAT STILL EXISTS.
So I decided to try and stay up to watch Leon on Colbert tonight (hopefully he is as pompous, silly, and intellectual as I recall)... and then I read a silly little facebook post from a Bard student I know ,that reminded me HEY REMEMBER WHEN YOU USED TO MAKE ART? And I started thinking .... yeah, that was really great. I really, really loved making films. But I really, really love doing environmental work, and making a visible difference, and being around science and people who care and who DO things on a daily basis... things that require me to get something other than an art degree. Conclusion: I have what seem to be generally irreconcilable interests (at least in light of my current financial situation and schooling options).
So, while I sit and wait for Leon, I will just quietly have an existential crisis about my "future" (in quotes for a reason) and think about the fact that my life is CRAZY. I live in a house with 13 people for the third year in a row, and am in charge of it and them. I regularly wander around in public in bright orange rain gear, sing songs about the water cycle, and/or cut down trees (or repair chainsaws so that others can do so). And today, I spent 8 HOURS performing and teaching a puppet show (I heard the same song about 40 times, and probably can never hear the words 'i love recycling' again). Sometimes I realize I speak an AmeriLanguage that most people wouldn't understand half of.
All of this is completely normal to me. How the hell did I end up here? I love it and I sort of want to stay forever, but I have to split eventually to preserve my sanity, and I'm pretty sure I will not really know how to handle myself in the real world after several years of this. Also, did I mention the irreconcilable interests?
Good night. I have to go clean my room.
So I decided to try and stay up to watch Leon on Colbert tonight (hopefully he is as pompous, silly, and intellectual as I recall)... and then I read a silly little facebook post from a Bard student I know ,that reminded me HEY REMEMBER WHEN YOU USED TO MAKE ART? And I started thinking .... yeah, that was really great. I really, really loved making films. But I really, really love doing environmental work, and making a visible difference, and being around science and people who care and who DO things on a daily basis... things that require me to get something other than an art degree. Conclusion: I have what seem to be generally irreconcilable interests (at least in light of my current financial situation and schooling options).
So, while I sit and wait for Leon, I will just quietly have an existential crisis about my "future" (in quotes for a reason) and think about the fact that my life is CRAZY. I live in a house with 13 people for the third year in a row, and am in charge of it and them. I regularly wander around in public in bright orange rain gear, sing songs about the water cycle, and/or cut down trees (or repair chainsaws so that others can do so). And today, I spent 8 HOURS performing and teaching a puppet show (I heard the same song about 40 times, and probably can never hear the words 'i love recycling' again). Sometimes I realize I speak an AmeriLanguage that most people wouldn't understand half of.
All of this is completely normal to me. How the hell did I end up here? I love it and I sort of want to stay forever, but I have to split eventually to preserve my sanity, and I'm pretty sure I will not really know how to handle myself in the real world after several years of this. Also, did I mention the irreconcilable interests?
Good night. I have to go clean my room.