restart. reboot.
i feel so tired. in every way.
the past few days [nearly all of them] has let me see people i don't really get to see very often and it made me so happy to meet so many new wondeful people who actually understood just how much i love B&S, i didn't mind the "aw, little B&S fanatic! how cute!" smiles & responses.
last night was amazing...talking to sam and jon from scotland and kelly from CT...and boston from...BOSTON! i love them all so much, i want to pack my bags this instant and move to england and just.start.over.
i think that at this very moment it wouldn't really interfere with anything or anyone. maybe chris since we've been hanging out and bonding, and tavish for helping eachother deal with the idiotcy of people in particular boys which brings me to dre, and well, of course shea too....and i suppose my roommates and e. but that's pretty much it i've just realized. i have just come to the feeling of being unwanted/feeling unused/outrageously bored right now outside all these new people around.
come to think of it, i really had fun on friday as well with chris & fharzam & tim & chris mcfal [favorite drunk ever] . drinking cheap vodka with just a hint of orange juice, sharing ciggarettes, getting piggy back rides, being perplexed about handholding and sleeping on tables after staring at icicle christmas lights. it was great.
i finished freshman classes today
and feel i need a new start.
i feel horrible expressing all these feelings after such an amazing weekend. crash & burn i suppose...on the emotional level....or maybe i am just slightly schizophrenic?
actually....i just really miss them already. oh belle & sebastian...
Girl in the snow, where will you go
To find someone that will do?
To tell someone all the truth before it kills you
They listen to your crazy laugh
Before you hang a right
And disappear from sight
What do they know anyway?
You'll read it in a book
What do they know anyway?
You'll read it in a book tonight
the past few days [nearly all of them] has let me see people i don't really get to see very often and it made me so happy to meet so many new wondeful people who actually understood just how much i love B&S, i didn't mind the "aw, little B&S fanatic! how cute!" smiles & responses.
last night was amazing...talking to sam and jon from scotland and kelly from CT...and boston from...BOSTON! i love them all so much, i want to pack my bags this instant and move to england and just.start.over.
i think that at this very moment it wouldn't really interfere with anything or anyone. maybe chris since we've been hanging out and bonding, and tavish for helping eachother deal with the idiotcy of people in particular boys which brings me to dre, and well, of course shea too....and i suppose my roommates and e. but that's pretty much it i've just realized. i have just come to the feeling of being unwanted/feeling unused/outrageously bored right now outside all these new people around.
come to think of it, i really had fun on friday as well with chris & fharzam & tim & chris mcfal [favorite drunk ever] . drinking cheap vodka with just a hint of orange juice, sharing ciggarettes, getting piggy back rides, being perplexed about handholding and sleeping on tables after staring at icicle christmas lights. it was great.
i finished freshman classes today
and feel i need a new start.
i feel horrible expressing all these feelings after such an amazing weekend. crash & burn i suppose...on the emotional level....or maybe i am just slightly schizophrenic?
actually....i just really miss them already. oh belle & sebastian...
Girl in the snow, where will you go
To find someone that will do?
To tell someone all the truth before it kills you
They listen to your crazy laugh
Before you hang a right
And disappear from sight
What do they know anyway?
You'll read it in a book
What do they know anyway?
You'll read it in a book tonight