so things have been let loose
i finally wrote gina back..it went something like this...
Gina,
I just wanted now to be the time for you to know why it was that i decided to sever all ties with you, it was actually for a number of reasons. Firstly, I was upset that you didn't care that it bothered me that you were dating Pete, but that was only the small part of the reason. The main part of the reason as to why I felt the need to go "out seperate ways" was for things like this :
"and it sux that u dont know anything about me anymore. but i guess we could catch up."
now, most people would say something like:
"it sucks we don't know anything about eachother anymore"
what makes your life so much more special than mine that I deserve to know everything that goes on in it? Why did you always make your life out to be a zillion times better than mine and everyone else's? I really thought that maybe, just maybe you had changed your ways
"but u were in the city prob w some indi rockers er some shit."
But alas, you have not. This is not a letter where i am "out to get you" or anything of the sort, I just feel the need for you to actually for once know how I feel. Whenever I had something to say, you always had something better to say in response and you always seemed to pay half the attention I paid when I was listening to you. And that just isn't right. Friendships aren't supposed to be one sided like that. Perhaps this will make you realize that there is a life bigger and more interesting than the life that you live, and perhaps this will also have you realize that the world really does not revolve around your life. Again, I will tell you that I am not trying to be mean or anything of the sort...I am just telling you what it is that I feel and why it is that I decided to go my own way.
"i called your house yesterday cuz i come home practically every weekend."
Was your whole reason to get in touch with me because you were bored and broke in Long Island and felt that maybe you could ring me up so I could save you from your bordem by having you tell me some of your exciting stories? I'm sorry Gina but no, I am rarely at home as you have probably taken notice when you call and I am not usually there. I do not beck to anyone's call.
There were lots of times where I did enjoy spending time hanging out with you and we just had fun, I probably wouldn't have wanted to hang out with anyone else throughout highschool. I'd love to catch up with you sometime when we're on even ground.
-Melissa
I thought maybe I was too cruel, but I asked a friend and he said it was fair. So that's it. I've done what needed to be done and I feel better to have gotten everything off my chest.
I never ended up going to Philosophy...my arm hurt far far too much. Tavish offered me her Ryan Adams ticket for this Thursday's show for free! I don't really know much of his stuff...but Bryan told me that his shows are real fun and Bryan is going as well...so yeah, maybe I'll go. Another rushing night tonight - class - cab - train - subway - bowery > ASH!
yay yay yay. Did i mention that INTERPOL are opening? Those fucking punks that don't play any shows other than 21+!
I will FINALLY see them again after A YEAR AND A HALF. They used to be my favorite NYC band...long before the strokes...look what happens when you don't play enough shows!
What else...I wanna go to England to hang out with Tom and Chris and Phil - I've been thinking about England far far far too much the phrase "think of england this time" has really made itself clear in my life.
Gina,
I just wanted now to be the time for you to know why it was that i decided to sever all ties with you, it was actually for a number of reasons. Firstly, I was upset that you didn't care that it bothered me that you were dating Pete, but that was only the small part of the reason. The main part of the reason as to why I felt the need to go "out seperate ways" was for things like this :
"and it sux that u dont know anything about me anymore. but i guess we could catch up."
now, most people would say something like:
"it sucks we don't know anything about eachother anymore"
what makes your life so much more special than mine that I deserve to know everything that goes on in it? Why did you always make your life out to be a zillion times better than mine and everyone else's? I really thought that maybe, just maybe you had changed your ways
"but u were in the city prob w some indi rockers er some shit."
But alas, you have not. This is not a letter where i am "out to get you" or anything of the sort, I just feel the need for you to actually for once know how I feel. Whenever I had something to say, you always had something better to say in response and you always seemed to pay half the attention I paid when I was listening to you. And that just isn't right. Friendships aren't supposed to be one sided like that. Perhaps this will make you realize that there is a life bigger and more interesting than the life that you live, and perhaps this will also have you realize that the world really does not revolve around your life. Again, I will tell you that I am not trying to be mean or anything of the sort...I am just telling you what it is that I feel and why it is that I decided to go my own way.
"i called your house yesterday cuz i come home practically every weekend."
Was your whole reason to get in touch with me because you were bored and broke in Long Island and felt that maybe you could ring me up so I could save you from your bordem by having you tell me some of your exciting stories? I'm sorry Gina but no, I am rarely at home as you have probably taken notice when you call and I am not usually there. I do not beck to anyone's call.
There were lots of times where I did enjoy spending time hanging out with you and we just had fun, I probably wouldn't have wanted to hang out with anyone else throughout highschool. I'd love to catch up with you sometime when we're on even ground.
-Melissa
I thought maybe I was too cruel, but I asked a friend and he said it was fair. So that's it. I've done what needed to be done and I feel better to have gotten everything off my chest.
I never ended up going to Philosophy...my arm hurt far far too much. Tavish offered me her Ryan Adams ticket for this Thursday's show for free! I don't really know much of his stuff...but Bryan told me that his shows are real fun and Bryan is going as well...so yeah, maybe I'll go. Another rushing night tonight - class - cab - train - subway - bowery > ASH!
yay yay yay. Did i mention that INTERPOL are opening? Those fucking punks that don't play any shows other than 21+!
I will FINALLY see them again after A YEAR AND A HALF. They used to be my favorite NYC band...long before the strokes...look what happens when you don't play enough shows!
What else...I wanna go to England to hang out with Tom and Chris and Phil - I've been thinking about England far far far too much the phrase "think of england this time" has really made itself clear in my life.