wow.
it's fucking crazy being sober and shit...But it's really good for me. I'm just glad that I have a good support system.. I have the greatest boyfriend anyone could ever ask for, esp. going through all that I have to. It's different this time.. things seem to be going really well for me for once. I have a lot of things that are keeping me sober.. like not going to jail (again).. passing drug court with flying colors.. and of course staying drugfree for my better half and myself of course... Everything feels like it's going so fast but so slow at the same time.. I don't even know how to explain it. I'm just really content with everything, I mean of course I wanna smoke.. it's kinda been a daily thing for me for a very long time. But imma be strong.
the past couple of days have opened my eyes up to a lot. I'm just glad that I'm at a point in my life where i'm actually truely happy and I haven't been there in a long time. Even when I thought I was happy.. boy was I wrong. denial is not a pretty characteristic to hold and I can finally admitt it. The past couple of months have been all wrong for me and now I'm finally ready to accept all that and well change it all.
Don't get me wrong.. I have no regrets, I needed to go through the shit I did to learn and grow.. and trust me I have.
MAN I gotta wake up earlllly on my day off... but he's well worth it.
the past couple of days have opened my eyes up to a lot. I'm just glad that I'm at a point in my life where i'm actually truely happy and I haven't been there in a long time. Even when I thought I was happy.. boy was I wrong. denial is not a pretty characteristic to hold and I can finally admitt it. The past couple of months have been all wrong for me and now I'm finally ready to accept all that and well change it all.
Don't get me wrong.. I have no regrets, I needed to go through the shit I did to learn and grow.. and trust me I have.
MAN I gotta wake up earlllly on my day off... but he's well worth it.