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ehhh last nite wasnt that great... i may have seemed happy at dm but i wasnt... i talked 2 jenn when i got there online and first thing shes says 2 me is ::kills self::. it hurts when u care about some1 so much and they say they want 2 kill themselves. especially when its ur gf that u care about more than nething. when some1 says they want 2 kill themselves it means no1 else cares about them or thats how they feel. and she knows that i care dearly about her and i would do nething for her 2 b happy. then that nite cody showed his face there. and i really wanted 2 hurt him so badly. but i played bring the pain on ddr and got all better. then when i got home i noticed a couple things. jenn only has one thing in her profile sayin that we r goin out. and it doesnt even really say that. i read wut she said bout me and it said "I know that you're the kind of friend that someone will keep for a lifetime." it says friend... nuthing more... then this is all she said about us dating "*Friday the Thirteenth changed my life*" that could mean nething... then her friend justin that lives in another state wrote sumthin 2 her that is in her pro sayin she is everything 2 him and he loves her so much................ gahhhh it kills me 2 c dat. i mean im not normally the protective type but this is 2 far... justin has pretty much everything in his profile dedicated 2 her. and nuthing has changed since we started dating. i feel hurt. the poem she wrote 2 me now starts with dear lover... idk wut 2 do... i feel so lost and confused... i dont wanna b protective but this leaves me with no other options. i dont wanna lose her...