miracle...rambling
So I've had a really bad month right? Really panicy and racing thoughts, insomnia..all of it. I even tryed to leave my girlfriend for no real reason (is this normal for us?) But heres the catch. A friend of mine gave me two doses of Atavan for the past two days and I felt like a whole new person. Is it really possible for a pill to work that well that quickly, like literally over night? Well, I dont have anymore and today I am back to feeling like I was and I hate it. I called my caseworker today and told her how I had been feeling and to see if I could get into the dr sooner than monday. She said the dr told me to increase my geodon until monday. I then told her (white lie) that I use to take Atavan in the past if there was anyway he could go ahead and prescribe me that and she said he is not fond of prescribing Atavan. I was like oh no. What am I going to do? I just hope I can get him to prescribe it to me on Monday. Surely if I tell him it has helped me before? Argh. What to do with myself until then.