Drunkeness.....

[deadlyvampiress]

Its funny how Ive been drunk every night for the past week and for the last 4 nights havent stumbled in the front door before about 4am. Damn this living back at home sucks ass. I cant go out dow hat i want stagger in at ungodly hours without coping a lecture. Fucking parents Im old enough to be doing this its my time to have fun its what im meant to be doing.. hello.... geez... Some days I wonder why I even bother... Got my pub job back down here so looks like ill be working over Xmas and new years.. fun... not... I desperately need the money but i was looking forward to being drunk for a week straight but with everyone this time. oh well partys at mine when im not working.. i guess i could always just get sick again hahahaha.. Ahh the joys of being totally fucked like me and not knowing when your gonna die yet again.. why the fuck do people have to manage to save me. If i get really sick and die again then just fucken leave me.. I mean come on someone/ thing obviousily doesnt want me taking up everyone elses oxygen anymore... not that i believe theres a higher being and all that crap. its just a bit ridiculous dying a couple of times every six months or so and no-one being able to work out why.. your meant to be a fucking dr/specialist, do your fucking job and stop this happening to me or if you cant then just let me die im sick to death of the shit...

anyways tiredness and lack of sleep is kicking in I shall hit bed and dream of the one out of reach and who im dead scared is always going to be out of my reach.. *sigh*

xxxx