(Private) I'm not angry
I'm furious.
How could he make such a huge commitment without even discussing it with me? It's not like he bought a kettle without me, it's a bloody house. And a business.
How am I expected to believe that he wants me to be his equal if he throws huge sums of money around and makes enormous decisions like that on a whim without even asking me what I thought?
"If you don't like it, we can rent it out!"
For God's sake. As if that was the issue. I do like it, it looks perfect on the website, but he didn't even talk to me about it. I'm not some passive little thing that- When did I ever give the impression that I wanted was a rich man to make all my decisions for me? How would he feel if I decided to name the baby Sage or Parsley or something without consulting him?
And why get something so ridiculously expensive, it's far more than what we need. I'm not going to be able to get much on the house in Shoreditch, what with property values at the moment (and the fact that it's in Shoreditch). I won't be able to get two coppers to rub together until I sell it anyway, which will take some time, and let's be honest, I'd be lucky to get two coppers for it. I didn't want him to pay the whole damn deposit, I wanted to fucking contribute something. Maybe it's only symbolic because he would still have had to pay the majority, but I don't want him to take care of me financially. His money is his, not mine. This is his house, not mine. And forgive me if I wanted to do something together. If I wanted something that wasn't his and wasn't mine but was ours.
We're seeing it tomorrow anyway. Much as I hate that he went over my head, I'm not about to stamp my foot out of petulance.
I'm worried about Pete, he hasn't been at work all week. No one (Jon) knows (will tell me) anything and I can't get through on his or Stitch's phones. I'm getting really anxious.... I just wish people would talk to me.
How could he make such a huge commitment without even discussing it with me? It's not like he bought a kettle without me, it's a bloody house. And a business.
How am I expected to believe that he wants me to be his equal if he throws huge sums of money around and makes enormous decisions like that on a whim without even asking me what I thought?
"If you don't like it, we can rent it out!"
For God's sake. As if that was the issue. I do like it, it looks perfect on the website, but he didn't even talk to me about it. I'm not some passive little thing that- When did I ever give the impression that I wanted was a rich man to make all my decisions for me? How would he feel if I decided to name the baby Sage or Parsley or something without consulting him?
And why get something so ridiculously expensive, it's far more than what we need. I'm not going to be able to get much on the house in Shoreditch, what with property values at the moment (and the fact that it's in Shoreditch). I won't be able to get two coppers to rub together until I sell it anyway, which will take some time, and let's be honest, I'd be lucky to get two coppers for it. I didn't want him to pay the whole damn deposit, I wanted to fucking contribute something. Maybe it's only symbolic because he would still have had to pay the majority, but I don't want him to take care of me financially. His money is his, not mine. This is his house, not mine. And forgive me if I wanted to do something together. If I wanted something that wasn't his and wasn't mine but was ours.
We're seeing it tomorrow anyway. Much as I hate that he went over my head, I'm not about to stamp my foot out of petulance.
I'm worried about Pete, he hasn't been at work all week. No one (Jon) knows (will tell me) anything and I can't get through on his or Stitch's phones. I'm getting really anxious.... I just wish people would talk to me.