dark days
its so dark outside. there's a storm and its like the middle of night outside but its only 5:30pm. we finally went grocery shopping yesterday. i haven't been hungry in 3 days but i still eat all the time. i hate eating. all i do now is think of food.
i have work tomorrow but i don't want to go. john will be there and he is disgusting!! always hitting on me. why can't the hot guys hit on me. ew
its so cold in my house. i just want to crawl into bed and sleep until summer. lol mark and i didn't go to sleep until like 6 this morning. since yesterday was the spongebob marathon and i wanted to watch every hour but i didn't wake up until 1:54pm. at first i thought it said 15:40. lol
mark and i made some pumpkin pie. i'm still waiting for it to harden. mark is with jr again. hopefully he gets some money so we can get...
well i got to get dressed so i can help my mom bring in the sugar and other stuff she bought from super target. i also need to clean my room before mark gets home. oh and i need to write in my thin notebook. i've been slacking but at least i've been keeping up with my calorie intake. i have my red rubber band since i can't afford the red bracelet but hopefully after i get everything out of the pawn shop i can finally buy one and get rid of this red rubberband. its too big for me.
mark told me last night that i have lost weight. it feels good that someone has noticed but i want to lose at least 50 more pounds. i think i've only lost about 10-20 pounds. i need to get a new battery for my scale. i'll probably ask my mom to get me one, oh wait its too late.
i can't believe its over for britney and kevin. his really cute. i still don't believe it. i think its all fake. she wouldn't leave him. maybe its a family thing. her mom and dad aren't together and so she has to do the same. i know mark and i won't be doing that. we'll be together forever. he hates devocre and so do i. <333
i have work tomorrow but i don't want to go. john will be there and he is disgusting!! always hitting on me. why can't the hot guys hit on me. ew
its so cold in my house. i just want to crawl into bed and sleep until summer. lol mark and i didn't go to sleep until like 6 this morning. since yesterday was the spongebob marathon and i wanted to watch every hour but i didn't wake up until 1:54pm. at first i thought it said 15:40. lol
mark and i made some pumpkin pie. i'm still waiting for it to harden. mark is with jr again. hopefully he gets some money so we can get...
well i got to get dressed so i can help my mom bring in the sugar and other stuff she bought from super target. i also need to clean my room before mark gets home. oh and i need to write in my thin notebook. i've been slacking but at least i've been keeping up with my calorie intake. i have my red rubber band since i can't afford the red bracelet but hopefully after i get everything out of the pawn shop i can finally buy one and get rid of this red rubberband. its too big for me.
mark told me last night that i have lost weight. it feels good that someone has noticed but i want to lose at least 50 more pounds. i think i've only lost about 10-20 pounds. i need to get a new battery for my scale. i'll probably ask my mom to get me one, oh wait its too late.
i can't believe its over for britney and kevin. his really cute. i still don't believe it. i think its all fake. she wouldn't leave him. maybe its a family thing. her mom and dad aren't together and so she has to do the same. i know mark and i won't be doing that. we'll be together forever. he hates devocre and so do i. <333