The New Year
Another year gone. I look back and wonder if I could change anything what would that be? I can't think of anything worth changing. I may not have many friends but the ones I have are there for me once in awhile. My love life was in turmoil and had its ups and downs. Single all year long. And work sucked regardless. Hmmm
Now I sit here thinking of the future. I wonder how things will work out this year. Maybe I'll be able to find a new love. Maybe I'll find a new job. Maybe I'll actually do something with my spare time instead of play video games. Who knows maybe I'll actually learn to play my guitar properly.
I find it cruel that fate has put me in funny situations time and time again. Two guys I am attracted to. Two guys both unique and special in there own ways. One is nearby and loves having a sexual relationship but cannot give me the emotional one I crave so badly. The other is far away and can give me the emotional I want so badly but can't give me the physical contact I need....not to mention he's married. Ugh why oh why do things work like this for me? Someday someone special will walk into my life. I hope I hope because I'm so tired of being alone.
Mental Note for myself: Please stop trying to mess up things in life. Just enjoy and if something happens it happens. If not then just enjoy it. No need to make a big deal out of nothing. Seriously...life is too short to keep playing head games.
Now I sit here thinking of the future. I wonder how things will work out this year. Maybe I'll be able to find a new love. Maybe I'll find a new job. Maybe I'll actually do something with my spare time instead of play video games. Who knows maybe I'll actually learn to play my guitar properly.
I find it cruel that fate has put me in funny situations time and time again. Two guys I am attracted to. Two guys both unique and special in there own ways. One is nearby and loves having a sexual relationship but cannot give me the emotional one I crave so badly. The other is far away and can give me the emotional I want so badly but can't give me the physical contact I need....not to mention he's married. Ugh why oh why do things work like this for me? Someday someone special will walk into my life. I hope I hope because I'm so tired of being alone.
Mental Note for myself: Please stop trying to mess up things in life. Just enjoy and if something happens it happens. If not then just enjoy it. No need to make a big deal out of nothing. Seriously...life is too short to keep playing head games.