childhood hopes
the girl i have been infactuated with my entire highschool and post highschool life who i havnt talked to in over a year called me tonight. i was so exited to talk to her that i dont even remember what i said. but i picked her up and we hung out all night and it was a blast, it was the most smiling i have done in a while and im really glad that i got to see her. she said shes going to come to my show on friday so that made me even more happy to hear. it felt like today was the day that things actually went my way for once. it felt really nice to feel like i actually mattered today. we met up with jason and went to the dier and ate jello and had a great time. im in such a interesting mood right now, ive got my head in the clouds and i dont want to come down right now. tonight was the best for me in a very long time. i hope that i get to spend a lot more time with her, she makes me smile all the time. i really just want to break down and ask her out, but its been way too long since ive seen her and i need to catch up on life. cross your fingers, i need this. <3