Is it that bad....
That I kinda want my mom to croak already so I can inherit whatever and actually have the wedding I want??? The crazy thing is I don't think I'm asking for much. Right now it looks like our wedding might be $7000 +/- which in NOT BAD AT ALL. But, apparently the only thing my parents have opted to pay for thus far is my wedding dress which I estimated to be not even half a grand. And on top of it my Mom keeps pushing for me to have the reception at this place in Hopewell, Anthony's which is the SAME place we had our post funeral party for my grandparents funerals!! Aside from that being just morbid and I think a bad omen, half the restaurant is a fucking pizza place!! Not to mention not everyone likes strictly Italian food! I'm seriously starting to think my Mom is trying to sabotage my wedding. Its like her mind set is "oh shit! Christine might actually be happy for once. Guess I gotta do what I can to put a stop to it." Everything I read says don't take out a loan for a wedding and don't use a credit card unless its small shit like getting your hair done. But, I'm starting to feel like I might not have another option. Even if we have it down here and do it cheap I know I'll be miserable because none of my friends will be able to come. And I don't wanna start going up to my relatives with my palms up to them. I know its more than a year away but already I feel like no matter what I do, unless we hit the lotto this is not gonna be the wedding I want at all :-(