false gods.

[deadguttergirl]

it isent pure or white,
neither is it red as sin.
i sit alone in the dark,
though no one can see a thing.
i rush into numbness,
hiding from thought.
im finding myself in that room,
i cant come out.
need a hand,
need a friend.
im stuck in a rut,
does anyone know that im gone?
found that pills took away my pain,
now im like a worship-er of them.
how can i have God return,
if all i think of is something empty?