Comfort un-comforted

[deadguttergirl]

Its a breath of fresh air negative
Its breaking free still being caged
Its certainty with confusion blown up

Ive always allowed myself to be hurt
Always felt pain was worth the few moments of bliss
Though these days i just want simple smiles
No need to deal with all the sorrow or anger

Each time im broken down
I feel empowered
I just dont want to be torn apart
Piece by piece i want to live in the light
The darkness is not feeling me anymore

Its taking a pill and it doing nothing
Its fucking and feeling only physical contact
Its waking in a still dream

I just want a easy way out
I cant keep running
I cant keep hiding
I need to find that safe place to reside.