I know you must be really hurt by the things I said to you. I truly am sorry. I think of you often. I really just want you to be okay. I won't elaborate, you know what I mean. You ARE my sister Miranda and I DO LOVE YOU! I have felt so shitty since that last aim chat we had. I just want you to know that I will be here for you always no matter what. Even though I got really mad, I wasn't actually "mad" but worried and concerned, I am such a bitch! I am sorry. Please know that Mom and me love you very much. It may not seem like it, but we do. As time passes, and your heart heals, please remember this post in your journal. You ARE an adult, you need to be able to make your own decisions. No one can knock you for that. You ARE doing what is best, I must respect that. I love you. When your heart heals from the terrible things I have said, I hope you will eventually be able to forgive me and over time, maybe we can go back to how it was a long time ago, we can be like we were when we were kids. Close. I miss laughing with you. I miss a TRUE happiness beaming in your eyes, one I can see in your smile. No matter what, I will support you, and If I could, I would take back anything I have ever said to hurt you, make you cry, or make you feel like shit. When I think back on our lives, when I think of the good times, I remember that beautiful face and smile, a HUGE smile. I loved it! Believe it or not, I am happy when I think of when you were 4 and you poured conditioning nail polish remover in my brand new bottle of sea breeze, and when you painted EVERYTHING with my glitter nail polish, staying up giggling even though we got in severe trouble for it......I wouldn't change that for the world. Again I am so sorry, I can't tell you enough. Please forgive me.
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