I have returned....this is your notice!
I said i would return eventually to live journal. Now that there is NO one breathing down my neck, or checking my url history, or logging my passwords, i feel i can safely come back. If you are on my LJ list then you know me...or least I know you well enough to trust that whatever you may see here, stays here. This motherfucker is locked down, private, and friends only. I will find out who said what. Sorry, i used to be alot more trusting, but after the last couple of drama filled years, i am hesitant. But, I shall put on a brave face and let you back into my crazy. And trust me, in my serveral year hiatus from live journal and alot of you, the crazy has gotten bigger, crazier and way more pronounced.
First off, I must apologize to those of you who i lost over the last few years. I lost myself. Trust me when i say you really didnt want to be around me anyways. Hell, i couldnt stand to be around myself, hence why i have been so fucked up! Im not so much anymore. I stopped using heroin, hopefully for good this time, we can only pray. I still smoke pot, I wont ever stop that, you will pry my pipe out of my cold dead hands. I drink a bit more now than i used to, therefore, I have LOTS of crazy stories and funny shit that happens now, and i usually remember most of it. I still take pills, only because with out them, I truely would be pickin ppl off at random from atop a clocktower or courthouse, i try not to abuse them anymore. Notice i said try. Um, as far as everything else, im still me. I miss alot of my close friends.
I am single for the first time in 13 years. Yep, that f'in long. Do you know how good this feels? Yes, I get lonely (thats what the random boy toys are for) but as far as having a motherfucker tell me what to do, when to do it, and who i can and cant do it with? HAHAH NO THANKS. Ive been bouncing from Jason to Rodney for the last couple of years, and both are finally done. I love them both dearly, but from a distance is preferable and only when I have to! Those books are closed, and proverbially speaking, just so no one else has to endure the torture, im not going to put them back on the shelf for some poor unfortunate person to ever come across. I set the motherfuckers on fire, and watched them burn. Im certain, i will probably dig up the dead eventually and discuss the past, or parts of it, but keep in mind, im not living in it. Forward movement is good.
Im still me, just a bit different than I used to be. Im honest to a fault now. Sometimes brutally. This will be the only post that is not locked down.
My contact info:
I usually only use yahoo IM: b1tchg1rrl
myspace.com/deadgirlonastick for pics and stupid shit
and if u want my phone #, ur gonna have to ask.
First off, I must apologize to those of you who i lost over the last few years. I lost myself. Trust me when i say you really didnt want to be around me anyways. Hell, i couldnt stand to be around myself, hence why i have been so fucked up! Im not so much anymore. I stopped using heroin, hopefully for good this time, we can only pray. I still smoke pot, I wont ever stop that, you will pry my pipe out of my cold dead hands. I drink a bit more now than i used to, therefore, I have LOTS of crazy stories and funny shit that happens now, and i usually remember most of it. I still take pills, only because with out them, I truely would be pickin ppl off at random from atop a clocktower or courthouse, i try not to abuse them anymore. Notice i said try. Um, as far as everything else, im still me. I miss alot of my close friends.
I am single for the first time in 13 years. Yep, that f'in long. Do you know how good this feels? Yes, I get lonely (thats what the random boy toys are for) but as far as having a motherfucker tell me what to do, when to do it, and who i can and cant do it with? HAHAH NO THANKS. Ive been bouncing from Jason to Rodney for the last couple of years, and both are finally done. I love them both dearly, but from a distance is preferable and only when I have to! Those books are closed, and proverbially speaking, just so no one else has to endure the torture, im not going to put them back on the shelf for some poor unfortunate person to ever come across. I set the motherfuckers on fire, and watched them burn. Im certain, i will probably dig up the dead eventually and discuss the past, or parts of it, but keep in mind, im not living in it. Forward movement is good.
Im still me, just a bit different than I used to be. Im honest to a fault now. Sometimes brutally. This will be the only post that is not locked down.
My contact info:
I usually only use yahoo IM: b1tchg1rrl
myspace.com/deadgirlonastick for pics and stupid shit
and if u want my phone #, ur gonna have to ask.