I'd give it All away.. Just to have Somewhere to Go to..
Give it all away.. to have someone to come home to..
Well, just finished calling Joe.. haven't talked to him for awhile now. Didn't get ahold of him either. He was at his buddies house.. again. His father was just driving over to pick him up, then got to the hospital. No damned idea what that was about.. hope it's none serious. He leaves tomorrow for vacation, for two weeks. I haven't talked to him since the last time I posted in this journal, disregarding today. If you can't tell, that would be a month and four days. Is it any wonder why I'm so upset? [Do note he has given messages to tell me, and has said things about me to keep me going..] So I've really been trying today to get ahold of him... A lot has been going on with him, but I'd rather not type it and upset myself. Only thing that matters is that we love each other..
this is all so clear..
Either way, I have the music blaring. Tomorrow we have to dress 'formally' for Christmas mass. Feh.. I hate going to a parochial school. I may study religions to debate them, but I damn well don't enjoy their presence in my daily life. Either way, I have to wear a skirt. A pretty skirt. The only skirts I have are black, and short. Not the type of thing a 'holy sister of the lord' would enjoy seeing upon one of her 'little Christian children'. Oh well. She'll just have to deal with it. She said skirt, so I'll give her a skirt.
..This is me pretending this is all I need
I am really not looking forward to the holidays. Tomorrow is my last calling day.. trying to get ahold of him before he goes on his trip. I'd like to just fast forward until a happier time.. Joe'll be gone all through them. My eyes'll be as blue as the moon light on the snow because of it.. I really, really miss him... God damn it all.. divert the mind.. just DIVERT it.. And to make matters oh so better.. My parents are screaming in the background.. I keep pumping the volume up to drown them out. Fucking morons.. can't pass a day without an argument. Can't they just shut up??
This is me alone..
I better get started on finding my clothes and doing my homework.. I'm falling behind in everything. It's amazing I'm half as calm as is.. I think my eardrums are gonna burst.. damn being sensitive to pitch and volume. That's what having ear infections constantly will do to you. Check you guys later. If not, good night, I guess.
Auf Wiedersehen.
This is my December.
Well, just finished calling Joe.. haven't talked to him for awhile now. Didn't get ahold of him either. He was at his buddies house.. again. His father was just driving over to pick him up, then got to the hospital. No damned idea what that was about.. hope it's none serious. He leaves tomorrow for vacation, for two weeks. I haven't talked to him since the last time I posted in this journal, disregarding today. If you can't tell, that would be a month and four days. Is it any wonder why I'm so upset? [Do note he has given messages to tell me, and has said things about me to keep me going..] So I've really been trying today to get ahold of him... A lot has been going on with him, but I'd rather not type it and upset myself. Only thing that matters is that we love each other..
this is all so clear..
Either way, I have the music blaring. Tomorrow we have to dress 'formally' for Christmas mass. Feh.. I hate going to a parochial school. I may study religions to debate them, but I damn well don't enjoy their presence in my daily life. Either way, I have to wear a skirt. A pretty skirt. The only skirts I have are black, and short. Not the type of thing a 'holy sister of the lord' would enjoy seeing upon one of her 'little Christian children'. Oh well. She'll just have to deal with it. She said skirt, so I'll give her a skirt.
..This is me pretending this is all I need
I am really not looking forward to the holidays. Tomorrow is my last calling day.. trying to get ahold of him before he goes on his trip. I'd like to just fast forward until a happier time.. Joe'll be gone all through them. My eyes'll be as blue as the moon light on the snow because of it.. I really, really miss him... God damn it all.. divert the mind.. just DIVERT it.. And to make matters oh so better.. My parents are screaming in the background.. I keep pumping the volume up to drown them out. Fucking morons.. can't pass a day without an argument. Can't they just shut up??
This is me alone..
I better get started on finding my clothes and doing my homework.. I'm falling behind in everything. It's amazing I'm half as calm as is.. I think my eardrums are gonna burst.. damn being sensitive to pitch and volume. That's what having ear infections constantly will do to you. Check you guys later. If not, good night, I guess.
Auf Wiedersehen.
This is my December.