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the longer i live here the more i begin to feel sucked in...i genuinely hate this. i will just have to make a way. i wont get to so cal at this rate. but then i think is so cal even worth moving to? people always tell you when you hate where you live is that it's your problem and yours only. this has gone a little above and beyond that. it almost fuckin pains me to wake up another morning here. i need a fresh start...a clean slate. i'm feel like i'm never gonna get ahead here and if i continue there will be no getting out. i'm usually confused but not about this...this is the only thought that has become crystal clear in my warped fuckin mind