...and back comes the curse; back to haunt those who despise it

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hello there. so lately i havent wrote. this is because amazingly i have gained obligations. never had THAT before. see this is because i joined the swim team. yes, yes i know faggish extremeous, but i dont care. i look like a fool most of the time so why not just afferm it as a true fact. im not really good but its excerise i guess. haha i get to be in the slow lane (but today i was bumped up to faster of the slow. woot woot). they work our asses off. quite funny. oh well. something to do.
anyways besides that life is pretty plain and normal. i know im crazy for saying this, but i serious i swear to god im cursed. find someone; all happiness than youre slapped in the face and plumit painfully back down to earth off of cloud nine. in fact i do believe my new motto shall be: does anyone else wanna push me off cloud nine while they have the time? something like that. blah. stupid girly emotions. i hate them. just wanna... murder them...so they die.
grrrr. <------{by the way sorry for all this. i sound stupid, girly and retarded...which i am being at the moment. so yeah...sorry}
really i dont know why im writing this. no one is gonna gimme advise or really, truthfully, care so i think ill just shut my mouth (well stop my fingers) and end here. so until next time. byee! xoxo
_Cara