And I promise you, I will keep you well, my sweet angel, so help me Jeeeesus.
Ah. I've felt really overwhelmed with school and work lately. It's summer break but I'm working two jobs and have two spring and summer classes. The thing is, I just can't let myself take time off and do nothing. I feel like a waste and a failure - I've always felt like this when I'm not working at full capacity. I think this is a fairly normal feeling, especially for students here, but it gets me down. I work 7 days a week and am doing fine in my two classes, but it's never enough. And this is why I end up depressed and irritable and anxious. After Dianna died I've had a lot of friend issues - basically, the first time someone fucks me over (even slightly) I sever all emotional ties and soon rip them apart. I can't deal with people that let me down, and with constant overzealous expectations of myself, I can't deal with my dissappointing self. Matt always tells me to relax but I'm honestly concerned that it's not possible for me. At least, not where I am with what I'm doing. At any rate, thanks Matt for listening to me when I get hysterically upset. You're terrific. And thanks to my two house mates, Jeff and Jason, for constantly making me feel happy and appreciated. And thanks to my friends not in Ann Arbor right now, but who are still awesome: Cat, Carly, Julie, Beth, Ashleigh, Matt A., Rachel, Michelle, big Trav, and of course, Aaron. I don't have a lot of friends, but I feel very strongly for those I have.
I don't mean to get all emo, I just want to get it all out there. Thanks dudes!!
I don't mean to get all emo, I just want to get it all out there. Thanks dudes!!