Thief

[deadeyes66]

i feel so stupid, im an idiot, i knew i shouldent have trusted him, my mom even told me i was stupid for listening to him, by him i mean my brother, oh haha just sibling rivalry, but its more than just that, hes fuck face loser, he has no future ahead of him, he has this girlfriend, ohh thir sooo perfect its like a fairytale, or more like a teen drama, where everything goes wrong, someone dies and then those stupid kids learn thier damn lessons. fuck i dont hate Liza(brothers GF) i just hate how needy and attached she is. thier together 24/7 day and night, they sleep together. my parents HATE her, my mom especially, she even prays for her to die. thanks to that whole relationship my brothers been missing school he only goes to school on mondays since the school year began, hes going to be a drop out just like Liza i know it. every single time my parents confront him, my brothers bitchy ass just runs away for a week, like that solves anything. i get cought in between, but no no i dont help my parents out, like an idot i help my brother, he needs gas monney cha-ching here ya go $10.00 from my pockket, yeah i need it but thats just how nice i am, tomarrow rolls around "hey mayra you got any money? i need gas" oh yes sure here take another 20, FUCK! everyday its the same, and if i say no well hes a bitch about it and says hes ganna stop driving me places, and just takes me on a guilt trip, that just really pisses me off, he says how much hes helped me, but after i give him the money i relize all that bull he said and how much of a push over i am. and everytime everyday i stick up for him to parents, i tell them how greeat he is and how they should calm down, i cover for all his missed days at school, ohhh but what do i get?...i come home and my parents scream at me because i didnt go to class, ok what ever, but then when my mom says "your brother said he woke up and went to school but you didnt want to go so you stayed home and ditched" that just pisses me off, hes blaming me for everything he does, while here i am covering up all his mistakes, busting my ass off so he wont get in trouble, i thought i was helping but instead i just made this problem worse, my family is falling apart thanks to him, nothings going right. i never understood why mom just gave up on him, just wanted him to leave and just never come home so he can spend all his life with liza which she says is a filthy whore who sleeps with everyguy she can, but i see it now, im not the same idiot sister i was. ever since yesterday. yesterday opened my eyes, oh we went to school (late) but me and my brother went to school. but it seemed my tony (brother) left after a few minuts, picked up his girlfriend and went to our house, yeah im used to that, but when i got home, went into my room, and looked through my little money holder, EVERYTHING was gone, all my money stolen, about a hundred dollars gone, and ofcourse tony stole it, i know it because i asked and he said yeah. i really wish i could belive him when he says he'd pay me back and he was sorry,but i just cant anymore, i hear that shit everyday, ive let him borrow these past 5 months more than $200, but he never pays me back, i never see the money agian, i let it slide i guess, but this time it just hit me real hard, how could he just steal form me, not even ask. and i know what he does with that money, oh sure gas right? NO...my brothers a god damn drug addict, thats al he does with the money, i knew that from the start, but i thought i was helping him, making things better, but i was just so stupid, and i hate myself for it,i hate it, just hate this......this is just such a mess, and im such a wreck...........i cant even explain how im feeling..........i cant even look i dont even want see him anymore.
i just cant handle it......