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i don't fucking know anymore.
two days already into this graduate thing and I found myself disliking it.
for one, the classes have not been true to their schedules. two, the fact that 3 of 4 classes I'm taking are taught by the same professor. three, folks at the financial aid office are useless in helping me get my financial aid awards in order. fourth, i had to spend money on drawing materials (yes, I am aware of the importance of drawing, but, fuck the school should be the one supplying me with these expensive materials.)
now I'm haunted by the memories of my undergrad years. the years were I realized that horticulture wasn't my thing after all but I pushed forward on the idea that I had to pick something to major in. I couldn't afford to stay another year at U of I.
y'know, why do I even bother. Maybe I should have not have gone to college at all or maybe waited a year to see what was out there. Its 7 years later and I am still unsure as to what I want to accomplish at all. I question my "yearning" to be a landscape architect. I say it to people who ask, but deep down I think I laugh. I don't believe myself. Really. I want to be a landscape architect?
also, I opted not to get an apartment unless I had a second party joining me. Its just too damn expensive. I'm currently at home which is good, i suppose. i still like the idea of moving out though. I hate getting questioned on frivolous topics such as my late nights, my phone calls, my friends, my demeanor, etc etc. Why do you care? It none of your business mum! Besides, whatever I respond, you are always gonna critique me on it.
still working at the home depot which is not as bad now since I'm only working weekends. saturdays are really fun cause Alex guru_dude, Amanda, and Omero are around. Sundays are usually a drag. I've noticed the volume of customers has decreased significantly from last year. How the fuck does my store make money with so few patrons?
i did have some fun lately though. On Friday evening, went to Millennium Park to hear the Chicago Sinfonietta play Holst's The Planets Suite while a big screen projector overhead displayed footage of each planet, during its respective movement, provided by the Adler Planetarium. Stellar show!!! Sad, adolfo, an old high school companion, couldn't make it to the show. I haven't seen him since last year. And, if I don't seem him before Wednesday, it'll be another long period of time till I see him next. Why would anyone move to Louisiana? anyways, had also invited Omero, Amanda (s'pose I should call them Omanda or Amero), Helen, Annie, amd Alex. Alex was the only one who showed up, which was cool, and brought Arby's, uber-cool. But, yeah, that was a good night.
Vast amount of reading needs to be done by Thursday so probably be heading out to Harold Washington Library to print out the material. Preliminary drawings for that movie dream sequence from friday are complete though I'm not entirely certain if I did it the "right" way. We'll see.
I guess I just have to stick it out for awhile and see whether the MLA is right for me...
two days already into this graduate thing and I found myself disliking it.
for one, the classes have not been true to their schedules. two, the fact that 3 of 4 classes I'm taking are taught by the same professor. three, folks at the financial aid office are useless in helping me get my financial aid awards in order. fourth, i had to spend money on drawing materials (yes, I am aware of the importance of drawing, but, fuck the school should be the one supplying me with these expensive materials.)
now I'm haunted by the memories of my undergrad years. the years were I realized that horticulture wasn't my thing after all but I pushed forward on the idea that I had to pick something to major in. I couldn't afford to stay another year at U of I.
y'know, why do I even bother. Maybe I should have not have gone to college at all or maybe waited a year to see what was out there. Its 7 years later and I am still unsure as to what I want to accomplish at all. I question my "yearning" to be a landscape architect. I say it to people who ask, but deep down I think I laugh. I don't believe myself. Really. I want to be a landscape architect?
also, I opted not to get an apartment unless I had a second party joining me. Its just too damn expensive. I'm currently at home which is good, i suppose. i still like the idea of moving out though. I hate getting questioned on frivolous topics such as my late nights, my phone calls, my friends, my demeanor, etc etc. Why do you care? It none of your business mum! Besides, whatever I respond, you are always gonna critique me on it.
still working at the home depot which is not as bad now since I'm only working weekends. saturdays are really fun cause Alex guru_dude, Amanda, and Omero are around. Sundays are usually a drag. I've noticed the volume of customers has decreased significantly from last year. How the fuck does my store make money with so few patrons?
i did have some fun lately though. On Friday evening, went to Millennium Park to hear the Chicago Sinfonietta play Holst's The Planets Suite while a big screen projector overhead displayed footage of each planet, during its respective movement, provided by the Adler Planetarium. Stellar show!!! Sad, adolfo, an old high school companion, couldn't make it to the show. I haven't seen him since last year. And, if I don't seem him before Wednesday, it'll be another long period of time till I see him next. Why would anyone move to Louisiana? anyways, had also invited Omero, Amanda (s'pose I should call them Omanda or Amero), Helen, Annie, amd Alex. Alex was the only one who showed up, which was cool, and brought Arby's, uber-cool. But, yeah, that was a good night.
Vast amount of reading needs to be done by Thursday so probably be heading out to Harold Washington Library to print out the material. Preliminary drawings for that movie dream sequence from friday are complete though I'm not entirely certain if I did it the "right" way. We'll see.
I guess I just have to stick it out for awhile and see whether the MLA is right for me...