If being cryptic is a gift, then damn am I gifted....
Here it goes...
Have you ever felt like a your life is becoming a fucking lie? Like you lie about an aspect of yourself, not because you have to, but because your scared? Have you ever felt like you have no fucking clue what you're so scared of? Yeah, that's pretty much exactly how I feel.
Why do I do this to myself? I know that this could all be solved if I would just talk to someone about it, but I can't. Actually, its more like won't. See, ever since I can remember, I've never been able to open up about my personal problems. Oh, I have no problem talking about things that upset me that are external, but internal stuff, like feelings, no chance in hell. In fact, there's only two people in the entire world that I would even consider revealing my innermost issues to, and I don't even open up fully to them. Nobody knows my deepest insecurities, nobody knows how I really feel inside. I wish I could tell them, but I can't. I won't. Because I would go through anything in order to never feel vulnerable. Its true. Its kinda like I'm Rapunzel, isolated in the tower. But instead of letting down my hair, I shave my head. Nobody sees the walls I put up, and my biggest fear is that I'll never let them come down.
Sorry if this got melodramatic and emo, but I really needed to say this.
Have you ever felt like a your life is becoming a fucking lie? Like you lie about an aspect of yourself, not because you have to, but because your scared? Have you ever felt like you have no fucking clue what you're so scared of? Yeah, that's pretty much exactly how I feel.
Why do I do this to myself? I know that this could all be solved if I would just talk to someone about it, but I can't. Actually, its more like won't. See, ever since I can remember, I've never been able to open up about my personal problems. Oh, I have no problem talking about things that upset me that are external, but internal stuff, like feelings, no chance in hell. In fact, there's only two people in the entire world that I would even consider revealing my innermost issues to, and I don't even open up fully to them. Nobody knows my deepest insecurities, nobody knows how I really feel inside. I wish I could tell them, but I can't. I won't. Because I would go through anything in order to never feel vulnerable. Its true. Its kinda like I'm Rapunzel, isolated in the tower. But instead of letting down my hair, I shave my head. Nobody sees the walls I put up, and my biggest fear is that I'll never let them come down.
Sorry if this got melodramatic and emo, but I really needed to say this.