School can be so depressing...
I've been kind of sad all day, and I don't know why. OK, I actually do know why, but I don't want to say. It will only make me seem more depressing. I guess it's just the realization that I finally have the confidence to go after what I want, but it's too late. I'll never get the chance to get what I've been more or less waiting four fucking years for, and it sucks.
In semi-related news, I need a boyfriend. I know I'm probably the worst girlfriend ever since I'm awkward, independent, and I totally have a fear of intimacy, but I still want a boyfriend. Yes, after 18 years, the hormones that should have kicked in at around 13 or 14 finally have. Actually, I just want to make-out with someone before I go to college, because I've never gotten past closed-mouth kissing. That's so fucking pathetic, I laughed at myself when I typed it. I mean seriously, I don't want to be one of those girls that spends their teenage years all prudish, then goes to college and unleashes their inner slut. That would be bad. I at least need to learn how to kiss before I get to college, so I can at least fake like I have experience. Because I really don't think the girl who's a total fucknig virgin in every way imaginable is that hot to guys.
Whatever, I'm done being depressed at my complete and utter lack of a social life. I'm gonna go watch QaF on Youtube again, because boysex makes everything better.
In semi-related news, I need a boyfriend. I know I'm probably the worst girlfriend ever since I'm awkward, independent, and I totally have a fear of intimacy, but I still want a boyfriend. Yes, after 18 years, the hormones that should have kicked in at around 13 or 14 finally have. Actually, I just want to make-out with someone before I go to college, because I've never gotten past closed-mouth kissing. That's so fucking pathetic, I laughed at myself when I typed it. I mean seriously, I don't want to be one of those girls that spends their teenage years all prudish, then goes to college and unleashes their inner slut. That would be bad. I at least need to learn how to kiss before I get to college, so I can at least fake like I have experience. Because I really don't think the girl who's a total fucknig virgin in every way imaginable is that hot to guys.
Whatever, I'm done being depressed at my complete and utter lack of a social life. I'm gonna go watch QaF on Youtube again, because boysex makes everything better.