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i'm supposed to burn heather a cd but i don't have any cds. i wonder what happened to all of them.
i'm supposed to meet up with cody in 20 minutes and i haven't even showered. i don't even know if i want to go out. i'm tired of feeling like this. i don't want to stay in the house all the time, but i don't want to go out and be around people either. on occasion i do, and that's when i'm in a really fucking happy mood. lately i mope around in pajamas, listen to music, watch a movie, and sleep. what kind of life is that? well miss nina, i reckon that's not quite a life at all.
now let's discuss how i've been completely FUCKED(metaphorically speaking) by dan. he quit his fucking warehouse job so now i don't have a ride to there, so i'm not even going to work there. therefore i have to continue searching for a job, being nagged every fucking five minutes by my stepdad, and being stressed about it.
i have jamie being a critical bitch, bugging me about getting an apartment(which i have no money for-and now no job to get money), telling me i make her have low self esteem & that i make her a loser who doesn't want to do anything with her life. maybe i'm just stupid, but i thought best friends were supposed to help you out in hard times? guess i was really fucking wrong.
i want to get the fuck away from here. so much easier said than done.
i lost control and hurt myself
i knew deep down that i needed some help