Woot Woot in the Boot!
So Ryan started reading my past live journal entries and i guess hes learning a lot about my life.. haha wow thats cool.. less explaining i have to do. Ok i still have to explain.. ah nevermind! I started reading mine from what seems like the begining of time and i must say that i have really changed since my first year of college. Its amazing what
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I think its a great idea for you to read over everything again, its crazy, have you ever done it before? Yes, you definitely have had more negative posts in your past. I feel that most of these depressed feelings came over crappy guys, and you never even mentioned the mailman guy. I'm sorry I got scared about you wanting to talk to any of these guys again, I know its your own life and you can do anything you want. I encourage you to do your own thing, I can't have you all for myself, that would just be selfish. I was just afraid since you have accepted these negative people back into your life so many times and thought it would just be best to totally get over them, block them from your life like you did the indian guy eventually.
One thing I noticed after reading the majority of your journal (so far) has been the constant ups and downs. Most of the time it had to do with a combination of school and some guy. It seemed the more they ignored you, the more it made you want them. I realize it was totally just lust and wanted someone to be there for you. Now that I've officially been here for 6 months and going into 'the next stage' it seems like some of the desire coming from you has calmed down a lot more than I thought it would. I guess I'm slowly moving to 'the next stage' but not really feeling the same way you are about it. I still want to show you all the love I can at any time for no reason, just out of the blue, but sometimes you act like I am smothering you. We can see how the love has changed by these lj entries alone. The love hasn't faded or anything, but it seems expressing it has. I would love to express my love more but I need to know you feel the same way. I love you honey bunny! <333
Oh dear, I forgot taxicab confessions started at 11:30, its now 12 and I just turned it on, I sowwy! :(
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