Winter blues
I've been a bit down lately. It's cold. I don't really go outside. I may have watched all of Torchwood and 3 seasons of Doctor Who in the past 2 weeks. (which was brilliant, btw.) I've caught a bit of a cold.
Of course, this is to be expected. And I must say that "a bit down" ver. my life in Japan comes nowhere near "a bit down" ver. elsewhere, so I can't really complain.
I have been thinking about that a lot recently, given that I have offically decided to stay here another year and the unfortunate fact that I may be getting a whole new surprise change of schedule come April.
Its just that I am generally pretty happy here. I haven't accomplished a lot in terms of goals that I've set for myself, but on the day to day I'm having a pretty good time. I love my kids and can't even really imagine having a 9-5 job in which I understood half of what was said or no one randomly fondled my hair.
But even though its going by fast, sometimes a year and a half seems like a crazy long time. Then I start to think about what I will do when I go home for good. Which is terrifying because I have no idea. I can't help but think that if I stay somewhere where thinks make sense. . . .I don't even know.
I guess really the thing for me to do is to get my act together, stop failing at life (some of which can't be helped. I swear to you I've gotten 10 times clumsier since I've been here. This causes me to fail constantly,) and cross bridges when I come to them.