Mar 02, 2000 13:26
I can't take this. Every day its a new pain. She doesn't have to do anything, because if she don't start the problem someone else does. Never one day of peace and fun. Now sh is uncontrollable. All because of one stupid promise to stop restricting. I never meant it, i just wanted to see her happy. Now thjis doesn't mean anything to her; Shes not even grateful like she said she'd be. A bitch now. Let her of her leash and watch her run away. Give her trust and watch her break it. All these sorries which really mean nothing. she is a samller version of a hipocrit. Shes not true anymore. I'll let her be the ay she wants to be cause i don't seem to count anymore. The one simple thing i ask is turned into some big drama sceane. Its not as hard as it looks to stop talking to someone completely. I mean take a second to think. Anyone who try not to accomplishes it. She just don't care any more. She's gone, at least who i knew is. Now im still me, just all pathetic living in fear and pain for whatr she calls nothing. I'm getting tired of her. She doesn't bore me its just the way she makes me get over everything. Some guy can grab her int he wrong place and all ig et is a lecture from her telling me why its ok to be grabbed there. Either that or her telling me to just get over it without reason. Stupid reasons that don't make sence anymore. I don't wan't to do anything to make me regret stuff so i rather ask her to do it. She hurts me too much and she says she dislikes getting me depressed but she does nothing to change. It feels as if she lives of me being jelous. She enjoys making me it. All i ever hear is that im not who she though I was gonna be. Now its like just fuck it all. If she doesn't know me than she might as well leave. I don't know her either anymore. Shes changed so much. She used to be inoccent but now ithats all changed. SOmetimes i get the feeling shes more blind than I am, she don't see the pain she causes and she don't bother to try to understand why I feel the way i do.