Loneliness
Hey everybody on lj.........
I havent updated this thing in like over a year now, how sad:(
I dont really like spilling my thoughts over the net but hey if thats what it takes to make people understand i totally get why people do it.
I have been afully lonely the last couple of weeks, everthing around me has seemed to crumble in front of me and the only solution i can think of is writing about it. I dont know why but when you write the thoughts of everthing that has gone wrong or right it all seems to go away and ive never understood that but hey what you gonna do.
All my life ive wanted to be happy with someone i adore and i cant even find the means to do that.
I had someone, the perfect one who loved me and i loved her more than life itself, and i still love her, and even more now than i did, but the hard truth is that i dont have that one anymore and it hurts to the bottom of my heart.
I did screw up that i know that now but i want to make everthing better and i just dont know where to begin.
I will probably find someway of doing that but until then ive having a hard time coping with the feelings and the love that i feel.Maybe im being melodramatic but thats how it is.
If i could juct make her see how special she is to me maybe i could again gain her trust to prove that i can be the person she always wanted me to be.
I know that im hanging on false dreams but my heart says to keep hanging on because if i let go i will loose her always. Who ever thought that love was so tough, i never understood that growing up but now its as clear as it will ever be.
YOU NEVER REALISE WHAT YOUVE GOT UNTIL ITS GONE
I havent updated this thing in like over a year now, how sad:(
I dont really like spilling my thoughts over the net but hey if thats what it takes to make people understand i totally get why people do it.
I have been afully lonely the last couple of weeks, everthing around me has seemed to crumble in front of me and the only solution i can think of is writing about it. I dont know why but when you write the thoughts of everthing that has gone wrong or right it all seems to go away and ive never understood that but hey what you gonna do.
All my life ive wanted to be happy with someone i adore and i cant even find the means to do that.
I had someone, the perfect one who loved me and i loved her more than life itself, and i still love her, and even more now than i did, but the hard truth is that i dont have that one anymore and it hurts to the bottom of my heart.
I did screw up that i know that now but i want to make everthing better and i just dont know where to begin.
I will probably find someway of doing that but until then ive having a hard time coping with the feelings and the love that i feel.Maybe im being melodramatic but thats how it is.
If i could juct make her see how special she is to me maybe i could again gain her trust to prove that i can be the person she always wanted me to be.
I know that im hanging on false dreams but my heart says to keep hanging on because if i let go i will loose her always. Who ever thought that love was so tough, i never understood that growing up but now its as clear as it will ever be.
YOU NEVER REALISE WHAT YOUVE GOT UNTIL ITS GONE