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i haven't been to school yet this week and i haven't slept yet this week, i used to know something real and the two that were once one broke apart just like everything else. i thought maybe the things i was told were true for once but i guess not. im crying on the inside because my i cant materialize and i threw up this morning i thought i should tell you but i told you what i thought was real just like you did a long time ago. this has turned into complete confusion hasnt it? if i start to say anything i would but i cant i keep saying things i dont mean and not really listening because i am so sick of talking and not really saying anything. i just want to watch people and look and hear thats what i meant to say. i just want to listen and maybe loose my voice for a few weeks. there shouldnt be anything expected from one person to another because if you listen you can hear what they feel or think or wish they could say but you dont even have to say it i wish anyone would understand that. im in love im in love and i cant tell anyone because i cant understand it myself and i wish i didnt feel like i had to say it all so here i am no one