and if you chose to walk away id be right here waiting...
well today was cool...yesterday was awesome... yesterday was the first day of school and manzo called me to get me up...lol that was heathers job...i like attacked austie when i saw her...i missed her so much...i love that little girl to death...and i saw heather and was like i missed you!! i swear...lol in homeroom there was this little freshmen and hes all like O.o i laughed... so yeah i had heather manzo and austie in my first class ((tehe this is going to be fun)) so of corse, despite the fact that its the first peroid of the first day of school, we didnt pay attention... of corse lol... well manzo game me a spiderman keychain from universal so i weas like aw... anyway then i had chemistry which i have with nick c who rocks my mis-matched socks...OH!! i saw jon!! i love that kid...he is such a sweetheart...i gave him a huge hug and emily was walking down the hall glaring at me and when she go to me she said "hugging other guys are you?" i was like "yeah jon is my secret lover" and hugged him i mean come on she is such a bitch...anyway jon was like 'i dont know if i can go with you guys after school today" ((cuz heather and i were staying after school and she was gonna get me high))...((shh...i dont really wanna...i dont want to do drugs at all...but hey...its heather...=\)) anyway i was like whatever and nick and i were like messing around in chem and olivia is in that class with me ((thank GOD!!....now i know ill kinda pass XD)) well then i had lunch and spent it trying to find sarah but couldnt so i found nick and austin instead and austins new pet freshmen... lol so we played cards and then the freshmen found out we were sofmores cuz he thought we were seniors because we are so layed back it was funny...austin said its because ...actually i dont remember what he said...but i said no it was because we dont care...i was like ive had seniorities since 3 day of freshmen year...lol so yeah the bell rang and i had english with melissa ((who is so totally awesome i was so glad to have a class with her...im glad its 5th peroid!!)) and leigha and i stole cherioes from her and the teaher rocks and is going to be so easy... anyway then i had world history with austie and i sit down and she says "i have a class with your boyfriend" with a not so happy look on her face lol and i asked her which one and she was like last peroid... i laughed at her because she has to see him every day! heh...poor girl...anyway nick c is in that class too and the teacher put us in assigned seats and austie sits just diaganal behind me...that will be fun...omg i love the teachers advice!! this is what he said::"this is an easy class...if you dont think so...quit IB" im like yes!! so yeah then i came home and got online where i talked to manzo the the comp died so i called him the the phone died so i got back online talked to nick the comp died and he was gonna call me but then some chic i dont know - or actually dont remember - called and talked to me for like an hour and a half... so when i got off i got online then the comp dies and i got off and nick called...then des came over and i was gonna kill...wait no..i was gonna KILL her...lol anyway i was taking a shower and my mom comes home and says "i got you KFC" i was like yes!! so i ate chicken ^_^ you know just so they dont take over the world... lol... so yeah today was the second day...and i had geomitry with devin ((damn that kid is pretty)) so we were like talking and messing around and shit fun fun then i had ...uhm... OH! BAND!! lol i got myself a freshmen...im sitting at the piano and she comes up "uh...maybe you can help me? me::*glares* her::"is this jazz band?" me ::*glares*"...yes" her:: "oh ok good" me::*gets up and copys adution music pages* her::*follows me* me::"so what do you play?" her::"flute" me::"no flutes in jazz band..." her::"oh really they said there where!" me::"have you ever heard a flute in jazz?" her::"have you ever not herd a flute in jazz?" me::"uh duh" her::"oh..." me::do you play anything else?"*sits down at piano* her::"piano..." me::*glares* how long have you been playing?" ((lmao i got to say it!!)) her::"oh im sure not as good as you..." me::"how long?" her::"since first grade..." me::O.o "well then if you want to play jazzzz....." her::"oh i do!" me::"then your gonna have to switch to piano..." her::"oh of corse!!" me ::*tehe i rock* so yeah i have a new player and a new pet...im like sarah!! you should just see me now!!...lol so yeah then i had lunch found sarah today!! yay!! so im all like sarah!! and im talking to her when nick austie and austin come up and still talking to her as they leave lol so yeah then back to english where the teacher said the same things as yesterday...oh well melissa and i passed note...so then was art...me and nikki and a few other sofmores were in there we had to draw ourselves...mine sucked...so yeah...manzo gave me the new Dah! mix...number 27,420 yeah...i have number 1...2...and 27,420...lmao...good mix...it has sugar were going down on it which i love! so yeah...when i was walking home i swear there was someone following me!!
my mask is back...already...i noticed it today on the bus ride home...im already hiding everything...i already make myself look and act happy and then get all...blah when im alone...i mean durring the summer i could be depressed when i wanted so i really was happy when i acted happy but now even if im upset ill act happy- at school...=\
oh and by the way...i hate emotional atachment...and right now all i want is him here...with me...i feel so...incompleate...O.o...i hate this feeling...like i will all of a sudden think of him and just think...erg!! this wasnt supposed to happen!! i was going to stay single all of high school and that didnt work but i promised my self id neer get attached again and id never love someone again...i promised myslef i wouldnt do that to myself...not let my self get hurt by someone again...but too late...damnit...