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2:45 AM -- after an hour and a half of driving around to different houses i know of, i finally got 2 packs.
i sniffed them and got home. so tomorrow it will begin. it's not that i permenantly want to quit getting fucked up, i just need to stop doing so much. the goals are:
1. STOP doing heroin
2. cut down on Vicodons, so i can enjoy them on the weekends.
3. cut down on Morphine, so they can be used only on ocassion.
4. STOP sniffing oxycontins. only use 2-3 X per month, orally.
6. STOP smoking
7. after completing thiese goals, quiting will be easier when I'm not addicted, because I will only be using recreationally.
i think that if i log how i feel throughout this entire 3 day process, it will be helpful for me to read in the end and encourage me to continue a more healthy lifestyle.
i have not gone an entire day without taking any drugs in legitamatley 6 months, and it was because theyWERE no drugs and so I got sick that day. Before that day it had been about a year. So yeah, for over a year I have been consuming alot of drugs everday. I make $500 a week, and on average $350 a week is spent on a combination of Vicodons, Heroin, Oxycontins and Morphine. I need to STOP. My dad wonders where all my money goes. I bought a nice car a month ago and told him of all my plans to pimp it out and I've done nothing, he seen my bank statement and seen that I've been lying about me saving up money. So he wonders where I spend $500 a week. I need to quit spending so much on drugs before he figures this all out. So really this is all not only for me, but for him too. I just feel bad for all my dealers.
i sniffed them and got home. so tomorrow it will begin. it's not that i permenantly want to quit getting fucked up, i just need to stop doing so much. the goals are:
1. STOP doing heroin
2. cut down on Vicodons, so i can enjoy them on the weekends.
3. cut down on Morphine, so they can be used only on ocassion.
4. STOP sniffing oxycontins. only use 2-3 X per month, orally.
6. STOP smoking
7. after completing thiese goals, quiting will be easier when I'm not addicted, because I will only be using recreationally.
i think that if i log how i feel throughout this entire 3 day process, it will be helpful for me to read in the end and encourage me to continue a more healthy lifestyle.
i have not gone an entire day without taking any drugs in legitamatley 6 months, and it was because theyWERE no drugs and so I got sick that day. Before that day it had been about a year. So yeah, for over a year I have been consuming alot of drugs everday. I make $500 a week, and on average $350 a week is spent on a combination of Vicodons, Heroin, Oxycontins and Morphine. I need to STOP. My dad wonders where all my money goes. I bought a nice car a month ago and told him of all my plans to pimp it out and I've done nothing, he seen my bank statement and seen that I've been lying about me saving up money. So he wonders where I spend $500 a week. I need to quit spending so much on drugs before he figures this all out. So really this is all not only for me, but for him too. I just feel bad for all my dealers.