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i just wanted you you you you you. i want you now, i wanted you then, i want you tomorrow and the next day, and i swear, i'd give you anything. i'd give you everything. i'd give it to you at the drop of a penny, a dime, a hat, a needle, you name it. whatever you drop i will be right there.
but you don't drop things. you just give me hope that you might have a clumsy moment that i can patch up with some words. words words words. i give you word after word after word. i try to make every word perfect for you. that's what my life has been for quite sometime. perfection doesn't help for the first time in my life. i am perfect for you but you don't even care. what can i do to make you care? what can i do? what can i not do?
just tell me, please. please just tell me. i might be selfish and you might be on a completely different level than me, in a completely different world, but why do you make me feel like this? why do you make me feel like hope is an okay thing to have?
hope for you and i is such a deception. once the hope fades, there will be a lot of destruction. what makes me feel even more hopeless is that i would revel in the turmoil of it all. i would revel in absolutely everything, because all i want is you. that's all.
that's too much. so i will try to just forget it all the best i possibly can. which really, is not forgetting at all.
i love you, okay? i just do and i don't know why.
but you don't drop things. you just give me hope that you might have a clumsy moment that i can patch up with some words. words words words. i give you word after word after word. i try to make every word perfect for you. that's what my life has been for quite sometime. perfection doesn't help for the first time in my life. i am perfect for you but you don't even care. what can i do to make you care? what can i do? what can i not do?
just tell me, please. please just tell me. i might be selfish and you might be on a completely different level than me, in a completely different world, but why do you make me feel like this? why do you make me feel like hope is an okay thing to have?
hope for you and i is such a deception. once the hope fades, there will be a lot of destruction. what makes me feel even more hopeless is that i would revel in the turmoil of it all. i would revel in absolutely everything, because all i want is you. that's all.
that's too much. so i will try to just forget it all the best i possibly can. which really, is not forgetting at all.
i love you, okay? i just do and i don't know why.