remember that arch of roses right above your couch?
i am a good person. is it bad when you have to say that? today everyone has made me out to be quite the opposite.
i felt kind of empty and void today. well, not entirely. it's hard for me to handle switching between two extremes all the time.
i listened to hot fuss today, whilst writing in my journal. when i heard believe me natalie it felt like the first time i had ever heard it. it was really great to be delivered back to that time in my life. well, it didn't feel like the first time i had ever heard it. i hated it the first time i ever heard it.
it felt like the first time i listened to believe me natalie and actually got it. :)
i was thinking today about the things that i really wanted...or the things i really need to feel...or the things i love to feel. whatever.
1) i love the feeling you get when you know a song like the back of your hand. i can't fathom how anyone could get on with life without knowing a song like that. there's something comforting about it.
2) i want there to be a song that someone directly identifies with me. i want someone to hear a song in twenty years and say, "oh, that reminds me of a girl i knew. she showed me so many things that i could've never discovered on my own." or something cheesy like that.
3) this kind of goes along with number one. i love knowing a song so well that you can stop examining the basic, obvious things about it, and start to look for inflections in the singer's voice, the relationships between the instruments...i was listening to andy, you're a star for probably the one thousandth time and there was something so slight in the way brandon was singing that i'd never noticed before. i can't even explain because it was so subtle. but it was there. i love finding new things like that.
ugh, i'm so tired and i can't see OR type well...so it's bed for me. ciao bellas.
i felt kind of empty and void today. well, not entirely. it's hard for me to handle switching between two extremes all the time.
i listened to hot fuss today, whilst writing in my journal. when i heard believe me natalie it felt like the first time i had ever heard it. it was really great to be delivered back to that time in my life. well, it didn't feel like the first time i had ever heard it. i hated it the first time i ever heard it.
it felt like the first time i listened to believe me natalie and actually got it. :)
i was thinking today about the things that i really wanted...or the things i really need to feel...or the things i love to feel. whatever.
1) i love the feeling you get when you know a song like the back of your hand. i can't fathom how anyone could get on with life without knowing a song like that. there's something comforting about it.
2) i want there to be a song that someone directly identifies with me. i want someone to hear a song in twenty years and say, "oh, that reminds me of a girl i knew. she showed me so many things that i could've never discovered on my own." or something cheesy like that.
3) this kind of goes along with number one. i love knowing a song so well that you can stop examining the basic, obvious things about it, and start to look for inflections in the singer's voice, the relationships between the instruments...i was listening to andy, you're a star for probably the one thousandth time and there was something so slight in the way brandon was singing that i'd never noticed before. i can't even explain because it was so subtle. but it was there. i love finding new things like that.
ugh, i'm so tired and i can't see OR type well...so it's bed for me. ciao bellas.