when is it going to happen?
i'm trying to focus on the positive things going for me right now. i'm trying to assure myself that if _______ doesn't happen, that it will not be the end of the world. i still don't have a math class. i need to start thinking of alternatives if none of the instructors will give me an override. i need this course so that i can take physics next semester.
the theme as of late, for the relationships of all the people i come in contact with, is askaskaskaskask....and not getting any answers. i hate not knowing where i stand or what is going on. it bothers me when i feel like i'm doing all the initiating....it reminds me of positions i've been in in the past and i don't want to be there again.
adam and i have plans to go to the baseball game on the 12th. it's miller lite 80's night and i'm gonna get all dressed up since i wasn't able to go last season. speaking of miller lite, i stronly dislike their new commericials. i'm not quite sure if they're supposed to be funny or what....they're irritating and i don't like their approach to being "funny."
adam also told me that he would take me driving, which is really cool because i haven't been able to drive a lot lately. my mom has been really busy with work and my dad is only here on the weekends. he has a jetta, also, so it'll be nice to be driving the type of car i'm looking to purchase.
i hope sheena gets her package soon and enjoys it as much as i enjoyed the goodies she sent me. i need to find some frames for the paintings. i've all been meaning to get a frame for the print that heather gave me last year. heather, i miss you....i hope things are going well for you in california. i promise i'll drive to visit you as soon as i have the license and the car and the confidence to drive on the highway. haha.
ummmm. yeh.
in the past, when i have been down about certain things...i have just sat around and just waited for those problems to magically go away on their own.
for once, i feel like i'm making an effort to change the things i can and remain positive...but i feel like i'm really being tested. there is so much going on that i'm not even sure what is bothering me most...i'm sure it's the things i can't do anything about. i suppose i could do something about it, but my options aren't much better than what is going on currently. so yeh.
for now, i'll just sleep.
the theme as of late, for the relationships of all the people i come in contact with, is askaskaskaskask....and not getting any answers. i hate not knowing where i stand or what is going on. it bothers me when i feel like i'm doing all the initiating....it reminds me of positions i've been in in the past and i don't want to be there again.
adam and i have plans to go to the baseball game on the 12th. it's miller lite 80's night and i'm gonna get all dressed up since i wasn't able to go last season. speaking of miller lite, i stronly dislike their new commericials. i'm not quite sure if they're supposed to be funny or what....they're irritating and i don't like their approach to being "funny."
adam also told me that he would take me driving, which is really cool because i haven't been able to drive a lot lately. my mom has been really busy with work and my dad is only here on the weekends. he has a jetta, also, so it'll be nice to be driving the type of car i'm looking to purchase.
i hope sheena gets her package soon and enjoys it as much as i enjoyed the goodies she sent me. i need to find some frames for the paintings. i've all been meaning to get a frame for the print that heather gave me last year. heather, i miss you....i hope things are going well for you in california. i promise i'll drive to visit you as soon as i have the license and the car and the confidence to drive on the highway. haha.
ummmm. yeh.
in the past, when i have been down about certain things...i have just sat around and just waited for those problems to magically go away on their own.
for once, i feel like i'm making an effort to change the things i can and remain positive...but i feel like i'm really being tested. there is so much going on that i'm not even sure what is bothering me most...i'm sure it's the things i can't do anything about. i suppose i could do something about it, but my options aren't much better than what is going on currently. so yeh.
for now, i'll just sleep.