So I Say
Stay Up Late and think about me
But don't let me know
That would be being needy
Me right now
I'm being nerdy
Playing this expansion to an old electronic thing
To whom i met someone in an awkward moment and it reminded me this thing was the thing that destroyed us
HA and thanks to this thing my life is where its at now
Confessing cares for everyone
and i've always stuck myself in the most awkward places
Stuck between you and her and her and he sticks himself between me
and trust me that last comment was only MEANT to sound sick
in which case it isnt
I'm bleeding everyone
I want love and i have Love
but im not ready
"they" aren't ready
"Then The Other" is only ready when someone with money is willing to throw it up and at em
They Love Jack Like You
Im not Ready for her or anyone
So i blurt
And i say that bcause im not and i ought want to be
I WANT To be
But Bazil Brought Up a Brilliant Bastion of Belief
Kyle...
"Maybe you are infatuated"
Hmmmm...
"Maybe you are right because Sex and poetics are the only thoughts that come to mind with such a Tight Pussy" "Then The rest is wanting what i cant have"
And her
Who i always feel safer stowing away in the back of my mind...
Its like this:
I push it into the back of my mind and all that happens is it comes flowing out of the heart. NOT just the chest but straight from the center where the heart REALLY is. Or do they call that the soul?
But lt's get physical.
Pretty hair Pretty face
You know you guys
She doesnt even wear make up?
and we each have permanent holes in our faces
Born EXACTLY a Year and 5 months apart
we both have days of eight
and saturn rules our number which is 8 and 3 is half of infinity
and when half of infinity is flat on its back you put that other half on top you have 8
and eight turned to the side is infinity and and and and and
So many ANDS
And... how was the first time ever worng when i realized how right the second time was
Not just words moments actions fractions of actions long lost trips into the minds of eachohers eyes
Truly not bullshitting when i said
Frosted Glass Passion Almost Kisses Things Tied To Hair AND
AND
oh yeah
and... All Natural Beauty
But watch the cowardice
atch me dance this dance we both dont like to dance
but arent we both dancers at heart or is it soul?
Where we take and learn from eachothers mistakes make create and relate and it took us four fuckin years to Make Any Sort Of Love
Woman!
i am in Hysterics!
I said so solemnly how i wished to go home early that morning when you had to work even earlier that morning
All for the sake of being not so needy
And look where im at remembering our two skinny bodies that arent too skinny and how i realized we are jut the right hieght
and how fingers tangled and mingled and eyes closed and for the first time in years i felt comfortable without saying a word
and i didnt feel guilty about thinking about Kori when i laid there after too many thoughts in mind to make sense but feeling Zen just the one just the same.
I knew who you were to me
i knew who she was to me
I AM needy dammit
I know who i need
I know what i NEEd
and Shit Fuck Goddammi how im using those words cuz im not to vocabularic right this instant
I NEED IT!
... i need it.
Those perfect words...
those perfect silences...
those perfect eyes that arent perfect so it makes them perfect because we all arent perfect and we are sick of hurting those to whom e think or dont think are perfect and how this flawless worlds flaws make it flawless
but those eyes and ears and words and me talking and you listening and me talking to much and you listening to much and i bet you knew i wasnt nervous i was just something else.
Im In Love
and honestly it feels good
Just Fine
I Love that you tied passion into your hair
I Love That you tied Passion into your Life
Your Heart and Soul
I just want to sit there in two computer chairs with Acid Cats and romance
it was romance because who goes that deep to Regina Spektor pepperchini's and green olives?
I dont know i guess we do
How im back here again
Writing so many words... then thinking of deleting them before it's too late
before you read this and im humiliated forever.
Before i go on and destroy what we have.
All out of Fear
Im not afraid anymore
at least not in this moment.
You speak with your eyes i speak my mind.
Finally
At least in this moment.
i dont long for your kiss
or your touch
or your... body
I have before and Kiss-Touched my own body to such thoughts
Twice out of One-Thousand-Four-Hundred-And-And-And-Sixty days id say proves Lust is not the factor here.
I Long For.... i want to say Passion
but
honestly
Just Total Honesty at the expense of sounding corny cliche or cheesy or hell all of the above to which i dont CARE ANYMORE!
I Simply Just Long For
You
....
And now
For the sake of Ignorance
Im going to go play World Of Warcraft
But don't let me know
That would be being needy
Me right now
I'm being nerdy
Playing this expansion to an old electronic thing
To whom i met someone in an awkward moment and it reminded me this thing was the thing that destroyed us
HA and thanks to this thing my life is where its at now
Confessing cares for everyone
and i've always stuck myself in the most awkward places
Stuck between you and her and her and he sticks himself between me
and trust me that last comment was only MEANT to sound sick
in which case it isnt
I'm bleeding everyone
I want love and i have Love
but im not ready
"they" aren't ready
"Then The Other" is only ready when someone with money is willing to throw it up and at em
They Love Jack Like You
Im not Ready for her or anyone
So i blurt
And i say that bcause im not and i ought want to be
I WANT To be
But Bazil Brought Up a Brilliant Bastion of Belief
Kyle...
"Maybe you are infatuated"
Hmmmm...
"Maybe you are right because Sex and poetics are the only thoughts that come to mind with such a Tight Pussy" "Then The rest is wanting what i cant have"
And her
Who i always feel safer stowing away in the back of my mind...
Its like this:
I push it into the back of my mind and all that happens is it comes flowing out of the heart. NOT just the chest but straight from the center where the heart REALLY is. Or do they call that the soul?
But lt's get physical.
Pretty hair Pretty face
You know you guys
She doesnt even wear make up?
and we each have permanent holes in our faces
Born EXACTLY a Year and 5 months apart
we both have days of eight
and saturn rules our number which is 8 and 3 is half of infinity
and when half of infinity is flat on its back you put that other half on top you have 8
and eight turned to the side is infinity and and and and and
So many ANDS
And... how was the first time ever worng when i realized how right the second time was
Not just words moments actions fractions of actions long lost trips into the minds of eachohers eyes
Truly not bullshitting when i said
Frosted Glass Passion Almost Kisses Things Tied To Hair AND
AND
oh yeah
and... All Natural Beauty
But watch the cowardice
atch me dance this dance we both dont like to dance
but arent we both dancers at heart or is it soul?
Where we take and learn from eachothers mistakes make create and relate and it took us four fuckin years to Make Any Sort Of Love
Woman!
i am in Hysterics!
I said so solemnly how i wished to go home early that morning when you had to work even earlier that morning
All for the sake of being not so needy
And look where im at remembering our two skinny bodies that arent too skinny and how i realized we are jut the right hieght
and how fingers tangled and mingled and eyes closed and for the first time in years i felt comfortable without saying a word
and i didnt feel guilty about thinking about Kori when i laid there after too many thoughts in mind to make sense but feeling Zen just the one just the same.
I knew who you were to me
i knew who she was to me
I AM needy dammit
I know who i need
I know what i NEEd
and Shit Fuck Goddammi how im using those words cuz im not to vocabularic right this instant
I NEED IT!
... i need it.
Those perfect words...
those perfect silences...
those perfect eyes that arent perfect so it makes them perfect because we all arent perfect and we are sick of hurting those to whom e think or dont think are perfect and how this flawless worlds flaws make it flawless
but those eyes and ears and words and me talking and you listening and me talking to much and you listening to much and i bet you knew i wasnt nervous i was just something else.
Im In Love
and honestly it feels good
Just Fine
I Love that you tied passion into your hair
I Love That you tied Passion into your Life
Your Heart and Soul
I just want to sit there in two computer chairs with Acid Cats and romance
it was romance because who goes that deep to Regina Spektor pepperchini's and green olives?
I dont know i guess we do
How im back here again
Writing so many words... then thinking of deleting them before it's too late
before you read this and im humiliated forever.
Before i go on and destroy what we have.
All out of Fear
Im not afraid anymore
at least not in this moment.
You speak with your eyes i speak my mind.
Finally
At least in this moment.
i dont long for your kiss
or your touch
or your... body
I have before and Kiss-Touched my own body to such thoughts
Twice out of One-Thousand-Four-Hundred-And-And-And-Sixty days id say proves Lust is not the factor here.
I Long For.... i want to say Passion
but
honestly
Just Total Honesty at the expense of sounding corny cliche or cheesy or hell all of the above to which i dont CARE ANYMORE!
I Simply Just Long For
You
....
And now
For the sake of Ignorance
Im going to go play World Of Warcraft