...fuck...
Life is all together at one point.. you have a job, a stable home, and you're going to school working on the "american dream" that everyone has already laid out for me.. but then everything falls through the cracks..
now I live in a small studio apartment with a boyfriend who couldn't care less about my needs as long as he's satisfied... no job, no school, no food... no hope? I'm beginning to wonder...
these people I talk to now are not my people.. they're stupid hicks who like drama and talking shit about people when they're not around... *gags* these people make me sick.. I want to go back to the ways things were.. but I'm attached to this stupid waste of a life I have now... when I didn't have to care so much
I'm still trying to figure out what the fuck went wrong with my head to let me fall into such circumstances... I'm just a waste of.. well, everything.. I can't be here anymore, but I have no where to go... and it all just keeps getting worse..
why do I have to care so much?
now I live in a small studio apartment with a boyfriend who couldn't care less about my needs as long as he's satisfied... no job, no school, no food... no hope? I'm beginning to wonder...
these people I talk to now are not my people.. they're stupid hicks who like drama and talking shit about people when they're not around... *gags* these people make me sick.. I want to go back to the ways things were.. but I'm attached to this stupid waste of a life I have now... when I didn't have to care so much
I'm still trying to figure out what the fuck went wrong with my head to let me fall into such circumstances... I'm just a waste of.. well, everything.. I can't be here anymore, but I have no where to go... and it all just keeps getting worse..
why do I have to care so much?