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So yesterday, I went and worked the reststop for the Paradise Ride..... rockage much? It was suh-weet. I ended up getting a pretty odd farmer's tan from the Hilo's shirt I was forced to wear... but all in all it was a cool day. We started out at Waimanalo, for the first rest stop. The cyclists ended up all checking in and leaving within a few hours, so we were then pressed to head to Bob and Deb's house as it was on the way to the next rest stop. We sat on the beach for about an hour and watched the dogs play fetch in the water... then we headed out to Kaneohe... which was pretty neat. I love the views from out there on the way to the campgrounds where the bikers are staying tonight. I got MAJOR picture-age. We got to the grounds and I just moseyed about for the most part. I met a lot of people, and recognized quite a few from the Luau the other night. Bob was there, he's awesome! We left there about 7ish and it took about an hours drive to get home, but it was a really nice day.
I didn't care for the ride home. I got pensive of course because I think about stuff way too much. I realize more and more how jealous I get when I see couples around. It's pretty bothersome. I'm insanely envious of anyone with any kind of relationship for some reason. I mean, I know considering all I've got, I should be a genuinely happy girl, and I wish I was... but I always feel like something's missing. I feel like... if I could just throw someone into the mix that I could keep hold of... I would just feel better, I think. I don't like feeling like that... like I need someone to be alright with myself but I can't help it.... it's the easiest thing in the world to make me content and I don't think people around me realize that. you pretty much don't even have to try... if you're decent it makes me smile. It could be so easy for me to just go out and find someone, I bet... but I'm stupid and I have this insane knack for ruining things. I need to do something about this. -mental note.- But yeah... this is pretty lame. It was an awesome day so I'll not ruin it for myself.
Today was alright, I suppose... the same ol' pretty much. I've eaten like ninety brownies in the last few hours though... probably not good.
Anyways. Enough of my pensive drivel. I'm going to go... I don't know... probably listen to the same song on repeat. I do that a lot. Yeah.
I didn't care for the ride home. I got pensive of course because I think about stuff way too much. I realize more and more how jealous I get when I see couples around. It's pretty bothersome. I'm insanely envious of anyone with any kind of relationship for some reason. I mean, I know considering all I've got, I should be a genuinely happy girl, and I wish I was... but I always feel like something's missing. I feel like... if I could just throw someone into the mix that I could keep hold of... I would just feel better, I think. I don't like feeling like that... like I need someone to be alright with myself but I can't help it.... it's the easiest thing in the world to make me content and I don't think people around me realize that. you pretty much don't even have to try... if you're decent it makes me smile. It could be so easy for me to just go out and find someone, I bet... but I'm stupid and I have this insane knack for ruining things. I need to do something about this. -mental note.- But yeah... this is pretty lame. It was an awesome day so I'll not ruin it for myself.
Today was alright, I suppose... the same ol' pretty much. I've eaten like ninety brownies in the last few hours though... probably not good.
Anyways. Enough of my pensive drivel. I'm going to go... I don't know... probably listen to the same song on repeat. I do that a lot. Yeah.