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[dead_mans_party]

I feel considerably nauseated.

The laptop goes back sometime this week.
Lights are supposed to get turned off tomorrow.
Rent check will most likely bounce.
$-2 in my dad's account.
Josh's has an advance on it, so that's no help.
I won't get paid till around the 25th.
There's no gas in the car to get to work.
There's hardly any food in the house.
And nothing to drink.
Except Arbor Mist and 6 Bud Lights.

I have no idea how I am going to get to work on Wednesday, since there's no gas in the car. No exageration, we wouldn't make it halfway to the mall.

I am an idiot for quitting Trail Dust. And an asshole.

And lately, especially tonight for some reason, I miss Chase.
Which is disturbing and slightly sickening.
But I do, and when I think about him, it makes me sad.
Very.

I have no idea what to do, there's nothing to be done.
I thought that this type of shit was over years ago.
Times aren't supposed to be this tough.
Not now.

*sigh*

I know you've got problems too...but at least you probably have food and will have lights pass Tuesday.