I Don't Love Anymore
Had a good time Friday night. Ice skating with Thomas, his girl, and some other chick. I was skeptical at first, but I ended up having a pretty good time. I didn't fall once. As we were leaving we were pulled over by the police. That was so hilarious. Dramatic, but hilarious. Drank myself to sleep after playing Halo and Pong. Can you even compare those two games? Yes you can. It's sad that both games, as large as the time gap between them is, were equally entertaining. A damn good time. All day Saturday I couldn't even bring myself to eat a thing till night time. Hangovers suck. At the studio John finished the drum tracks for the songs. My parents are serious about moving apparently. Closer to the school. That should be interesting. I guess I wouldn't mind a change.
Yeah I love to go back and fuck with my journal entries.
Whatever, maybe the cynics are right and love is just a load of bullshit. I'm tired of having my feelings fucked with. Putting so much faith in someone just to be crushed again. It's crippled my sense of belonging, and I feel lost. Play with my heart some more. I really felt close to her. Spending half a year with someone, talking to her every night, going over to her house one too many times and meeting her fucking family kind of makes you think someone really cares about you. Then when they throw you away it leaves you feeling empty and confused. That's how I feel. Empty and confused are the only two words that I can think of that describe the way I feel. I don't know if I'm supposed to hate her or just try to be her friend. She's been such a big part of my life. Am I really supposed to just cut her off? Or am I just taking this a little too hard? I thought of her as more than just some girlfriend. She was honestly like my second closest friend. So much for that "True Love" you used to tell me about, that you used to draw pictures for me about. I've never felt so close to someone. I'm going to miss her so much. But if the rumors are true as to why she left me, well then I guess I never really knew her at all. Good luck finding someone better.
Drinks please. Keep them coming.
I know we've never met and you'll probably never read this
There are certain things your voice does to me
It makes me feel the ground and sky again
How sad it is when you spill your guts on the paper
It only neglects you and never relieves
In every corner and space I search for you
I've only found your vocal cords
Hate that I'm never certain of what needs what most
All day your songs spin me into a romance repeatedly to the sky
Scream over and over again
Over and over again repeatedly to the sky
In every corner and space I search for you
I've only found your vocal cords
Hate that I'm never certain of what needs what most
And nothing has affected me so... and nothing has affected me so
In every corner and space I search for you
I've only found your vocal cords
Hate that I'm never certain of what needs what most
I like that song. But anyway, I'll try to lessen the number of posts I have concerning my shitty love-life or lack there of. There's more to my life than that. Not much more, but there is.
Yeah I love to go back and fuck with my journal entries.
Whatever, maybe the cynics are right and love is just a load of bullshit. I'm tired of having my feelings fucked with. Putting so much faith in someone just to be crushed again. It's crippled my sense of belonging, and I feel lost. Play with my heart some more. I really felt close to her. Spending half a year with someone, talking to her every night, going over to her house one too many times and meeting her fucking family kind of makes you think someone really cares about you. Then when they throw you away it leaves you feeling empty and confused. That's how I feel. Empty and confused are the only two words that I can think of that describe the way I feel. I don't know if I'm supposed to hate her or just try to be her friend. She's been such a big part of my life. Am I really supposed to just cut her off? Or am I just taking this a little too hard? I thought of her as more than just some girlfriend. She was honestly like my second closest friend. So much for that "True Love" you used to tell me about, that you used to draw pictures for me about. I've never felt so close to someone. I'm going to miss her so much. But if the rumors are true as to why she left me, well then I guess I never really knew her at all. Good luck finding someone better.
Drinks please. Keep them coming.
I know we've never met and you'll probably never read this
There are certain things your voice does to me
It makes me feel the ground and sky again
How sad it is when you spill your guts on the paper
It only neglects you and never relieves
In every corner and space I search for you
I've only found your vocal cords
Hate that I'm never certain of what needs what most
All day your songs spin me into a romance repeatedly to the sky
Scream over and over again
Over and over again repeatedly to the sky
In every corner and space I search for you
I've only found your vocal cords
Hate that I'm never certain of what needs what most
And nothing has affected me so... and nothing has affected me so
In every corner and space I search for you
I've only found your vocal cords
Hate that I'm never certain of what needs what most
I like that song. But anyway, I'll try to lessen the number of posts I have concerning my shitty love-life or lack there of. There's more to my life than that. Not much more, but there is.