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alright... so.. tonight..was...interesting
Me and brit chilled at her dads house- hes gone
We made pizza,
got drunk
she made me jealous-
she flirted with adam
and wanted joey
and told me that will doesnt have those feelings- fucking liar.
when she went to bed
i freaked
i lost it
everything failed me
for some reason= i talked to nate
he really cares for me
he didnt just say.. ill help you
and do nothing
he helped me
he was tired
yet still helped me
he called me
we talked
he made me calm
-weird-
i.am.fucked.up.
but he doesnt care
and he said he loved me when i told him i was gonna go
he made me feel so good.
feel loved
.friendship. wise.
:) nate is amazing im so happy hes in my life
i wont ruin this.. 
i cant!
i wish i could sleep
maybe ill meditate
:)
k..
goodnight.and sweet dreams.no dirty ones now...
haha. k
bye