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[dead_funk]

So i am quickly falling deeply infactuated with this man...whom is 11 yrs older then me..and he definetly does not see it, or maybe he does....I don't quit know him as well as id like to, but honestly ive never been so attracted so someone in my life, and truthfully he isnt that attractive, theres just this intense vibe i get when im around him, thats uncontrolable..i may be dilusional or plain of stupid, but i sort of get the vobe that he gets that vibe from me as well..I hate dreaming of when the day will come that he realizes we should be together...im probably dreaming about all of this...it could never happen, me get a man who i really like, nope it wont ever happen.But what ever, a girl can dream can't she..

god i need to find a partner soon, im so sick and tired of being sinlge...and the only single one out of all my girlfriends..i deserve it just as much as anyone else...

On another note...i can not handle a certain someone, she is throwing self pity partys one after another, i love her to deth, but seriously i don't think anyone could act and supposedly feel the way she does..and me the one person who is helping her out the most is notgetting recognized for it..she doesnt realize.andi hate it...she talks about evryone else and how much she appreciates them helping her out, but ive helped her out the most, ive shown that i care and love her..and i dont even get a thank you....oh well

i dont ever get what i want, ever..and i hate it.