again

[dead_end_dreams]

i dont see the point writing here cuz im not one to bitch for no reason.. but last night sucked i miss my friends that made me feel like me like nate mike and zimm idk i lost a big chunck of my self and i fucking hate who i am

i saw a moment of my past last night nichole was there, she has never looked more stunning, like i realize i fucked up years ago and my only regret in life is how i treated her, and now i gusse i just cant be around her.... she knows who i was and she has seen the best and worst o of me, and yeah i do want a second chance but they never come i just cant believe the shit she brings up

so the only girl i like at the moment apparently just got in a relationship, i know we got nothign in common but she made me feel happy i know its stupid but idk....

i really do hate my life at the moment and i dont really have any signs of hope anymore.... i need mike back i need nate back i need zimm to stop being a fucking twit and i need deanna to talk to me, but most of all i need to find that person i tried to shut out for so long