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[dead_dormouse]

i am cruelty at its finest right now
i take no shit
but give it in abundance

don't expect comfort from me
expect shocks
expect teeth
expect gnawing and gnashing until your bones are exposed

i'm done lying to myself
i'm done lying to you

don't ask for advice anymore
because i will tell you exactly what you don't want to hear

it's a brand new year
and i am on fire

the world is on fire

and i will fight til the last ember finally fizzles out
and we are all gone
victim of our own desires
and faults
killed off by all the thoughts that we thought kept us alive

grim
bleak
darkness

i am pulling myself apart at the seams and you all get to witness
as i drop my entrails to the ground
gut my life and toss it squishing into the trashcan

tomorrow
i bleed myself
in hopes it cures me of all the ailments i had paid to acquire

don't try to stop
don't feed me your bullshit lies
i am more than willing to take the whole worl down with me
before i rebuild and fly again

i just warn you all to watch out for shrapnel
and lousy misspellings of otherwise simple words
and misdirected punches
and wandering kicks
i feel like flailing and flail i have