I'm loosing my mind. Almost.

[dead_deer]

I was wonderin why I keep killing double $6.59 bottles of wine and 12 packs of PBR every night with my friends. I was wonderin why I keep begging pills off of Asa and even why I chewed on a morphine patch all night on Saturday. I was wondering too why I've gained maybe like 8lbs. since I sprained my ankle. These are all signs that I am so stressed about money that I can't even DEAL with it. I apply for jobs online or in person everyday. I'm off on Fridays and Mondays and I spend those days jobhunting. Its not like I'm not trying. I just got a call from Wet Seal at the MALL telling me I did NOT get a Sales Associate position. It was part time and paid only $7.75 an hour and yet I am totally fucking bummed the fuck out.

I can't afford my rent and my roommate creeps me out so I'll be crashin on couches come March 1! One of my co-workers offered to let me use her guest room for $250 a month so I MIGHT do that, only if I can get another job for this month. If I can hang on until March I have two farms I can work on that pay cash everyday and free veggies. I won't mind sleeping in my car or in a tent in the spring. Also, friends are trying to get me construction jobs and electrician assistant jobs too. I really appreciate these new people in my life who are helping out cause goddamn do I need it.

If I can't support myself by April its back to Mom n Dad's in CLT!! Not awesome.