everything is gonna be alright. real good time.

[dead_amerikan]

i couldnt do it.
whatever i was suppose to do.
i couldnt do it.
i wanted to do the right thing, handle the situation in the way i was suppose to, but I just dont know how.

i cant ignore the hurt.
it just crept up and choked me out.
when i came to i tried to figure out why it hurt so much.

there is a lot of residue from our previous fight. some girl from music texted him early this morning. i had to force myself not to wonder if it was the girl he lied to me about. that didnt go very well, like most times when you try to force yourself not to think about something. it feels like im not worth his time.
someone to open each and every door....but it aint me babe.
it aint me youre looking for.

there are other futures too. i dont know which one is best for me.
i thought a lot of things today. different kind of things. i dont feel good.

numb.
sleep now.
heart hurts.
head full.